Valentine’s Day 2009

Gmail chat with Jack below.

Its not like he’s not able to get to a phone, or get to a place where he could mail a letter. He has always made Valentine’s Day special, since the first one we spent together after dating less than a month. Nothing cliche, just so thoughtful that it breaks my heart to have gone since Thursday with no word from him whatsoever. The other pilots he shares a tent with, yeah, they sent cards, gifts, made phone calls to their girlfriends.

I had a bottle of red wine, watched "Stop Loss" and "The Notebook" and cried myself to sleep.

Tonight, on night shift as an offline chat to Jack I had to tell him how I felt. I don’t care that it may be worded meanly, I want him to know that what he did by forgetting to think ahead and think of how our first Valentines day apart would feel made me feel like worse than missing him alone already felt.

2:59 AM me: Why did you forget me?

  :'(
  This weekend has been more lonely than even I thought it would be. No call. No card or package in the mail. No reply to MSN messages.
3:00 AM A two line email saying you’d call, then you didn’t is how our love was celebrated on Valentines day.
  I hope you enjoyed your card, your package, your presents.
  I enjoyed last night. Alone. And today, alone. And tonight, alone.
  :'(

FGirl