1/3/2004

Friday:

Lets see, lets start from the beginning. The flight. The flight sucked. The flight from Hartford to Dallas/Fort Worth was long, and there were children all around us, literally. The one in front of us was travelling alone and he was very social and kept looking over and talking to us. Not, to most people this wouldn’t be a problem but I’m really shy and I have a hard time talking to people I don’t know, especially kids. The kid behind me was kicking my seat incessantly and there was a kid in our row, he was actually alright. We had big problems in Dallas. We got delayed, we were supposed to leave at 7:30pm and didn’t actually get on the plane until 10 something. We got really nervous because according to the paperwork we had the Rental car place closed at 10pm. Hubby called them and luckily they were open until midnight. We barely even made it there then. I wasn’t sure what we were going to do if we didn’t make it there in time. I was also frustrated because I inadvertently left my dads phone number at home, I called my mom and she looked it up for me and I called and my dads number had been disconnected. I wanted to scream. His daughter is traveling and he doesn’t pay his effing phone bill.

The funeral was today. The day started off with my dad telling me what my grandmother wanted everyone to do, meet at her house then ride in the limo’s to the church, then he informed me that he wouldn’t be doing this because his wife wanted to go to the funeral and they’d been fighting and they couldn’t tolerate one another in the car for half an hour. It seemed they were both being seriously immature about the whole thing. So dad never showed up at my grandmothers house. My grandmother and my Aunt were seriously pissed off, I was disappointed in him.

About 15 minutes before the funeral the preachers wife, who happens to be the mother of a friend of mine, came over to me and inquired about my father. He hadn’t shown up yet. She ran and grabbed her cell phone for me and I called dad and inquired as to whether or not he was coming. He said he’d be there shortly and hung up on me. I haven’t spoken to him since then, I gave him a hug when he showed up and he disappeared in a corner by himself. He didn’t seem interested in talking to me at all. He left in the middle of the funeral and didn’t show up at the little graveside service. I don’t know whether I should try calling him tomorrow or if I should just see if he tries to get ahold of me, he has our number. I think I’m just going to see if he tries to call us, I’m really upset with him. He has a hard time with stuff like this, deaths and stuff, he hasn’t taken any of this well. He’s got some serious psychological issues, he’s manic depressive and paranoid. This kind of stuff tends to bring out the worst of his problems. I understand why he is the way he is but you should treat your family like this.

The funeral itself, I have to be honest, I didn’t like it. My great Aunt did a wonderful Eulogy, that was the only part of the funeral I liked. When the preacher got up there to talk it just angered me left and right. It felt like a sermon, like he was trying to save souls and bring people to god, not give a funeral. I wish I could describe better, it wasn’t like any funeral I’d ever been to. It felt more like a Sunday morning service and that bothered me.

I got to see a lot of family members I haven’t seen in ages. People came from all over. The circumstances weren’t great but it was really nice to see everyone again. We stayed at my grandmothers until 10pm visiting, When we left she mentioned she might want to come to Connecticut. She said she’s always wanted to drive down the Maine coast, so we told her if she made it up there we’d take her for a drive. I hope she makes it up, I’d love that. We’re going to try to come to Oklahoma in May, I want to go at least, one of my cousins is graduating and when she mentioned it to me in October it seemed like it would really mean a lot of we could make it up. We’ll see, we might go for Thanksgiving too. My cousin has a full scholarship to Northeastern. She’s going to major in Communications and minor in English. She wasn’t to be a journalist. I’m so proud of her, a full scholarship is so great. She’s always been a really good student.

I’ve been wanting to do something special in memory of my grandfather. I think I’m going to scan in some pictures and post a little memorial page of memories on my website. I’ll, of course, put a link to it in here when I get it done. Tomorrow we’re visiting my mom and stuff, we’re going to get up and around and maybe do a little shopping, get some lunch. Taco Bueno, wooot!!!! I love Taco Bueno. Then we’re going to head over to my moms for a visit. She offered to take us out to dinner.

Saturday:

Hubby got the computer to connect to the internet so yay, I’ll get to post this.

We started off the day with a trip to Waffle House. mmmmm Waffle House. Then we went out to one of my favorite cd stores and it was closed. *sigh* So we headed towards another cd store I used to go to. Just so happened it was going out of business, everything was 20% off. We picked up four cd’s. Two Tool String Tribute’s, a Reel Big Fish cd and a Toad the Wet Sprocket cd. We also picked up a DVD, don’t remember which. But we got all that for 60 bucks. Then we went to my moms. She took us to one of my favorite mexican places then we went to the little Casino, lost 27 bucks then went to Wal-Mart. I bought a new wallet, a cozy pair of socks and we got another DVD.

We hung around their house awhile and talked and played with their golden retriever. Then they took us to Golden Corral. That wasn’t as tasty as I remember. I didn’t get any Taco Bueno but that’s alright. We got back to the hotel around 8. Today was a nice day. It’s nice to have the stress of the funeral and everything over. Things feel more normal now. I feel so bad for my grandmother though, their house is huge and she’s not sure she likes the idea of having this huge house to herself. She kept joking about taking in borders. We might stay with her more often when we come to Oklahoma, not only would it save some money but it’d keep her company. She loves company and is more than happy when someone wants to stay with her. I don’t usually like staying with people, but it depends on the person, if they’re not intrusive and don’t get offended when we want to go off and do something alone then we don’t mind. Next time we go to Oklahoma I want to look at some antique’s and stuff. I love how easy it is to find really cool cheap stuff here. 🙂 We were joking about buying a suitcase and filling it up with stuff and checking it. 🙂

Anyway, I should maybe like share the computer with hubby. So I’m going to go. We get home tomorrow, ugh, and return to work on Monday.