12/30/03

Well, we got our flight to Oklahoma booked, our hotel reservation made and a rental car reserved. I can’t believe we’re going to Oklahoma. I just, here I thought we’d enjoy another nice, peaceful, long weekend at home. We were going to take care of getting Sophie spayed and stuff. Now we’re preparing for a hectic weekend. I’m not working tomorrow, there’s just so much to do to prepare, the house is a mess. We have to pack and make sure hubbys suit is clean and everything. I’ve got to pick some stuff up at the store, make sure the pets have enough of everything. Never thought I’d be back to Tulsa so soon. I called my mom last night and made plans to see her sometime Saturday. I figure since we’re going to be there I might as well stop in and see my mom. 🙂

We fly back Sunday and return to work on Monday.

I’m not so sure about this whole flying thing. I’m not normally afraid to fly but I can’t help but be a little anxious this time, especially flying around the new year and all. *shrugs* I’m sure everything will be fine but I’m sure I won’t be able to get my anxiety to understand that and be rational until we’re safely back home. The good news is we have the seats by the window the whole trip and hubby is going to be nice enough to give me the window seat. I love sitting by the window, even despite my fear of something awful happening.

Hubby wants to take the laptop so I might update from Tulsa, y’never know.

Didn’t do a lot last night, hubby had to work late because he had to leave work to bring me home and stuff. I played my flute a lot, it was the only thing I could do, the only thing that could keep me still and keep me from pacing. I couldn’t sit still at my computer, I went outside and took a walk and also visited with the chickens, then I played my flute for over an hour until I finally got tired and laid down upstairs to watch re-runs of The Simpsons and King of The Hill on Fox. Hubby finally got home a little after 5:30, he came home with pizza, my mom called while we were eating, the pizza was already getting cold so I called her back after dinner. We watched TV and went to sleep.

I’m numb today. Yesterday I couldn’t be numb although I wanted to so badly, sometimes you just want to stop feeling so you can’t hurt anymore. Today I’m tired, drained, but alright.

Anyway, lunchtime and I’m starving.