9/20/03

I don’t have a hubby anymore. I swear, thanks to this fucking English class he’s taking he might as well not even be here. He’s gone Friday, Saturday and Monday (monday is a different class). But there’s so much damn reading and stuff that when he is here he might as well be gone. I’m going insane trying to keep myself entertained. I’d almost be nice if we could get my car fixed, that way at least when he’s gone I could be gone too if I wanted. Technically I could drive him to school, but then I have to pick his ass up. It’d be okay on Saturday’s but Monday and Friday he gets out at 10pm and I can’t drive that late. Too sleepy and oncoming headlights are brutal. *shrug* What would I do out anyway? Shop? heh, yeah right. Thank someone there’s only 3 weeks of this stupid class left!

I bought the stuff to start a new cross-stitch this morning. I’m dissapointed with the one I was working on. I screwed it up and now that I realize I was screwing up it’s discouraging. I don’t know if I’ll ever finish it. I have the hang of this now though so I’m starting a new one.

I introduced a litter box and some soft canned cat food to the kittens today. They sniffed the litter, one even got in halfway and scratched at the litter a bit. None of them showed any interest in the food. Sophie chowed down though and they watched her. Watching her is how they learn so we’ll see if they get interested soon. I dabbed a little on a couple of their noses so they’d have to lick it off and get a taste. They didn’t seem to thrilled with the taste. They’ll adjust, they’re still on the young side for solid foods, another week they should hopefully show more interest.

Claire, my female betta died yesterday. Strangely enough she had been showing no signs of illness so I’ve no idea what was wrong with her. I turned around to feed them last night and she was belly up, she had been fine that morning. I was so shocked I didn’t even react, just told hubby to flush her for me. I can’t flush my dead fish myself. I’m weird like that, but I can’t. I cleaned out her tank and sat it aside. Murphy, the sick one seems to be doing about the same. He gets more meds tomorrow. All the others are doing fine. I’m not going to replace Claire. I’m going to slow down on the betta hobby for awhile. I’m starting to feel like I don’t have any time anymore. It’ll improve when the kittens go to new homes I’m sure. But right now, time is short. It feels like none of our animals are getting the attention they deserve, including Sara. Hopefully the weather will be decent tomorrow, it’d be fun to take her for a long walk out on the trails out back or something. It’s been a few weeks since we’ve taken her anywhere. Even if we don’t leave the property or go in the car, a long walk is something. I don’t think she gets to spend enough time outside. She spends most of her time in the house with us, only really going out to “do her business”. It’d help if we had a fence. Maybe after we get the home equity loan and stuff at the end of the year we’ll be able to afford to fence in a good part of the yard for her. Of course, by then we won’t be able to fence in until the ground warms up in April or so, but it’s better than never I suppose. 🙂

I’m looking forward to the vacation in October. I fear I’m going to feel guilty though. I mean, we’ll be leaving all the kittens and stuff in the care of our neighbors. That and the money we’re spending could go to something better, but you have to get away, y’know? Gotta go do stuff or you get burnt out. It’s been two years already…and I’m burnt out. I need a change of scenery, traveling always renews me. The freedom that is the open road. *sigh* Just a few more weeks.

Anyway, I should get off my ass and go do something productive for the next half hour or so until hubby gets home. There’s piles of stuff on the kitchen table, a pile of crap on the floor, empty boxes around. You’d think a hurricane hit inside our house and nowhere else. 🙂