4/25/03

Yeah, so about that form I was “saving” yesterday. Did I get around to working on it?

Nope!!

I’ve got a few more now so I actually have to work today.

Work on a Friday?????

So last night I brought Sara into the living room with me for awhile. I’m watching her on the floor chewing on a pigs ear, nasty I know, but she loves them. I’m looking at her and I see this thing on her head. It looks like a tick. I glance up at the clock and see that hubby should be home in about 30 minutes or so. I decided it’d be best for me to just pretend I saw nothing and have hubby investigate when he gets home. I FUCKING HATE TICKS!! I cry like a 2 year old if one has to be pulled off me. No, it doesn’t hurt, they just give me the heebie jeebies like spiders do.

Hubby came home right on time and I told him I thought there was a tick on Sara’s head. After she calmed down a bit he took a look and sure enough, it was a tick.

Have you ever pulled a tick off a 15 week old puppy? 15 week old puppies don’t like to be still! We really could have used one more set of hands! Holding her down didn’t work and neither did tempting her to just sit still. So we ended up putting her head collar on her so that hubby could have something better to hold on to and I could plant one foot firmly on the leash to keep her from jerking her head too much. One hand could hold the leash and the other hand was free to rub and pet her and tell her what a good girl she was. Hubby also layed on her a little to pin her down. This method worked pretty well and hubby finally got the tick, or um, part of it and let her up. After a couple minutes he had to try to get the rest of the tick out and it seems Sara learned a lesson. She seemed to learn that should could either sit still and be good or be pinned down. She opted this time to just sit still and be good on hubbys lap. He was able to get the rest of the tick without having to hold her down at all. yay!!

We felt like shit having to hold her down and stuff but she forgave us. She licked hubbys face and wanted to play after it was all over.

We had been having some dominance issues with her prior to the tick incident. She hasn’t accepted her subordinate position in the family yet. Last night before I let her in the living room she’d been jumping on me, nipping at me then growling and biting at me when I tried to punish her by making her lay still. She’d also started shitting in her crate again and just generally not listening. This morning though there was no pee or poo in the crate and she was a good puppy again. For now it looks like she’s learned who’s boss again. She seems to test her limits just like a kid does as she gets older. She can be very trying at times.

I had expected the vet to mention frontline last time we went but she didn’t so I guess I’ll just buy some at the store or online. We know how much she weighs at least. She was 20lbs at her last vet visit, I’d guess she’s up to 25 by now though. I’m also going to try looking online for an easier way to remove ticks. You can use a lighter on people to annoy the tick with heat but that doesn’t work on hairy pets. Since it was somewhere he couldn’t lick we tried the fingernail polish method on my cat Casper when he had a tick and that didn’t work. It just left us with a mess to clean up and some glitter in Caspers fur. 🙂

We’re getting a pool! Not a big one, just a kiddy pool. It’s 10 feet in diameter and 2 and a half feet deep. It’s for Sara to swim in and us to cool off in. The cool part is that we’ll be able to sit down in it. I ordered it yesterday. It was kind of funny b/c I had checked my e-mail and I noticed this offer for Amazon.com’s Platinum Visa. I chuckled to myself, figuring I wouldn’t get approved and clicked the link to apply. I filled out the application and submitted it, I waited…waited…waited…. APPROVED! “Oh, shit” I said to myself “I didn’t REALLY NEED another credit card! With the credit card came a free 30 dollar gift certificate so I checked to see if they had the pool we’d looked at in Target and they did. For 80 bucks. 30 dollars off would make that 50 dollars plus buying the cover for it, 60 dollars. Shipping ended up costing 30 bucks though so I would end up breaking even and could have the pool sooner than next month this way. So I bought it. I haven’t gotten the card in the mail yet, you can use it at amazon.com immediatly. 🙂 When I do get it I’m going to pay off the pool and put the card in the file cabinet for emergency use. That’ll be really good to have. Right now we owe hubbys dad 500 bucks cuz we had an emergency and no emergency cash or credit available. Now we will, yippee! 🙂

I guess we don’t have much planned for the weekend. I need a new pair of work shoes. Yesterday I was in the bathroom at work and I looked down and saw this white thing. I was like “What’s that white thing on my shoe?” I bent over and touched it and was like “Oh, shit! That’s my sock!” There’s a hole in my shoe and the soles are starting to come off too. *whine* I really like this pair too. I do have another pair but the heels are too high. I love them b/c I’m short and they make me feel tall but I can’t wear them much cuz they make the balls of my feet hurt and that makes me grumpy. We’ll also probably stop at the thrift store. Am I the only person I know that shops at the thrift store? Not always of course, but once in awhile? I go there for the same reason a lot of people go there, I’m broke ass. But you can also find some really spiffy shit there! Some of it is genuinly hideous but you’ll occasionally find some really spiffy shit. I really wish I could fit into some of my old thrift store finds. I have this polyester shirt that’s pink and brown and I think I miss that one the most. 🙁 My fat ass seriously needs to lose some weight.

I was actually skimming some pro-anorexia sites yesterday. Sometimes I wish I could do it, I know better, but sometimes I wish I could for just long enough to get thin. I remember not eating and getting thinner and thinner, there was a strange satisfaction to it. A feeling of control over my body, the fact that I couldn’t choke if I didn’t eat, the fact that I could get thinner by not eating didn’t occur to me until it was happening, but when it did happen I did like it. Now sometimes when I think of losing weight I think “Just three months with no food and I could be thin again, It wouldn’t kill me”. But no, I can’t do that to my body again. I know better, I was sickly and unhealthy. I’m also hypoglycemic and would probably cave as soon as that lightheaded feeling started setting in around 11:00am. I find though sometimes that when I do diet I start feeling good about restricting food and want to restrict more and more. It’s all about that control feeling. I’m trying to eat healthier and excersize without restricting food to the point of getting that certain feeling, I wish I could explain it. But I can’t, I just know I need to avoid feeling it.

Hmm, 390 chars left. I can’t say anything worthwhile in that amount of space so off I go. I’m REALLY going to go work this time. 🙂