4/3/2003

Well, I haven’t found out about mine yet, but hubby found out about his raise, it’s pathetic. IS is being stingy this year. I’m hoping that since I work for Commercial that we’ll get better raises, hopefully they aren’t being as stingy, they usually aren’t but we’ll see. I have a bad feeling about it. The thing that bugs me is that both me and hubby are underpaid and our bosses know it. Hubby will get paid better as he gets his degree but there’s no reason I shouldn’t be paid more as it is. My boss apologized for our salarys when she hired us full time, she said the only way she could get us full time was to keep us at these low salarys and that she’d be able to adjust them later. They were supposed to get adjusted last October but it didn’t happen. All I know is it better happen this time around because I don’t like my job enough to keep working here for this kind of pay.

I was looking at the doggie daycare thing again. I never realized how profitable that kind of work was. If my friend there never starts up her doggie daycare I just may start up my own. It makes one hell of a profit especially if you offer things like obedience training which I can do, I’m just not certified. The hardest part is getting started and hubby and I both have relatives that have owned their own businesses for years so we have help on how to get started.

Speaking of dogs Sara is doing fantastic. She got to hang out with us in the living room last night and I think this will become a regular thing now, she didn’t bother anything or pee on the rug or anything. I was surprised but she showed no interest in anything in there although I did remove all breakables from low shelves. 🙂 The only thing she really seemed interested in was getting up on the couch which we aren’t allowing her to do. She’s coming along so well. She improves by the day. The only things we really have left to work on are things that will smooth out as she gets older. Going to the bathroom in her crate and stuff like that. She understands all the basic obedience things except for heel, I’m going to work with her on that once she’s a little older and calmer. The hardest thing for her right now is to stay because her attention span is so short but it’s improving and it’ll improve more with age. I want her to have enough self control that you can put a treat on her nose and have her wait until you tell her she can get it. You could do that with the golden I grew up with and it’s a fun trick. I’m really enjoying training her. I’m really starting to learn what I have a passion for now. Cats, dog training, graphic design and music.

Speaking of music that band I’m supposed to be in starts rehearsing next month. I’m waiting to get the schedule in the mail, I CAN’T WAIT!!!! I have missed playing my flute in a band setting so much. If there was one thing that got me through high school it was band. Band people are awesome and there is nothing like entertaining. I may be shy but put me on a stage and it’s over. I don’t experience stage fright. I’ve performed in plays, musicals, marching band, stage band concerts. I’ve sang and played solo’s and given speeches. I LOVE IT!! Entertaining would be my life if I could make the dream come true. Perhaps I should audition for American Idol? hehe The roar of the crowds applause is the most uplifting experience for me. I’ve finished band concerts with tears in my eyes. The hardest concert ever was my last one. Actually no, the hardest concert ever was graduation night. That night I was not in the band. They always play at graduation but since I was graduating I couldn’t play, THAT was the hardest concert ever.

I honestly don’t know where life is going to take me. I can see myself in a lot of places. There are a lot of things I’d like to do. I’d like to run a combination farm/bed and breakfast. I’d like to be an entertainer. I’d like to be a graphic design artist and make a lot of money. I’d like to be a photographer and I’d like to work at a doggie daycare. Where life will take me I have no idea. Right now I’m an underpaid technical writer. It seems my whole life has played out in it’s own way, nothing has worked out the way I planned. I never planned to get married, I got married at 18. I never planned to own a house, I bought a house at 21. I never planned to work behind a desk, I got this job at 18. Seems pointless for me to push for anything and I feel like I’m heading mostly in the right direction. I feel like where I am now is temporary.