2/10/03

I can’t stop thinking about the puppy. I’ve had her picture up on my computer all weekend. Every time I go in the office I’m like “Awww, there’s our puppy!” My mom is really excited too, you’d think we were having a baby lol. She wants to see her really bad and offered to help pay our trip to Oklahoma. I told her that I’m not sure I’m ready to go back and even if I was we wouldn’t be able to go this year except in August or maybe December. It’s hard to get away with hubby in school and I have band obligations from May to August. Then hubby is back in school with a winter break in December. So I told my mom that she should come here. 🙂 She said her reason for not coming here and instead sending me there was so that I can see the rest of my family too but since I don’t really want to her coming here would be fine. I hope she does, I’ve got a lot I want to show her. The trip to Oklahoma last time really sucked, I think I’m going to need at least 2 years between visits just so I can feel good enough to put up with it.

The other thing is that if mom comes here I won’t have to deal with her smoke filled house. Cigarrette smoke quite literally makes me sick. I noticed a big increase in smokers when we hit Missouri on our last drive down there. Gas stations started allowing smoking inside, people were smoking in rest stop bathrooms. I was actually sick when we came home and missed a couple days of work, all because of cigarrette smoke and no matter how many times I tell my mom it makes me sick she still won’t refrain from doing it around me. The only way I can keep her from doing it around is by having her stay in my house where I refuse to allow it. She swears up and down that there’s nothing unhealthy about it. Ugh, it grosses me out too when I have to hang out in her house, everything is yellow. Everything that was once white, walls, her computer monitor, everything is a dingy yellow color, yuck.

It was kind of funny when I was a kid because my mom always told me I would smoke. She said that kids of smokers are more likely to smoke and I would just shake my head and say “Well, not me”. Honestly, I don’t see how kids of smokers could not see how gross of a habit it is, for me it was definatly a deterrant.

Anyway, so it’s Monday the 10th and we get to pick up our puppy on Tuesday March 4th at 10am. I couldn’t be more excited!! 🙂 I’ll probaby be posting more pics on March 4th since we don’t get to see her again until then.

In other news my betta Clyde has constipation. Doesn’t sound like a big deal but it can be deadly for bettas. I lost two this year to it Ra and Sam. I caught Clyde’s early though and gave him a peice of pea which is supposed to help him clean out his system. He’s not allowed to eat for two days. Sunday and today. I hope like hell that he pulls through, he’s a really cool fishy.

I guess that’s it for now, I have another eye doctor appointment today so they can make sure I’m okay in my new brand of contacts and so I can purchase the years worth. I’ve been following their directions and am used to wearing glasses again. Actually, I really love my new glasses so I’ve been wearing them more than I have to which is really good. I’ve decided that if that contact woman still gives me a hard time even though I’m doing what I’m supposed to I’m just going to change eye doctors. I don’t expect it to change the fact that I’ve got a problem with my eyes or the fact that I have to follow a very strict schedule and never ever overwear my contacts but I do expect to be treated like a 22 year old, not a five year old. You don’t have to stand there and talk down to me because I didn’t follow directions 100%, all she had to do was actually tell me what the problem was. In the past all they said was “You really need to not over-wear your contacts it’s unhealthy”. They didn’t tell me WHY. I didn’t know how serious it was or I would have followed orders. All I need is a reason. If someone tells me something but won’t give me a reason I can’t take them seriously. I’ve always been that way. When I was a kid my mom said “Don’t touch my curling iron when I leave it on the counter like this okay?” She didn’t give me a good reason when I asked why so I tried it and ended up with a huge blister on my finger!! I didn’t even cry and I hid it until it went away because I knew I’d get yelled at. 🙂 If she had said “Don’t touch my curling iron because it’ll burn you and give you a blister”. I wouldn’t have gone near it. I dunno maybe I’m weird but I have to have a good reason for everything.

Anyway, gotta get to work.