a phone call…

gentle as you are it seems you should always be surrounded by gentleness – it suits you.

the peacefulness of the morning was pierced by angry words and hurt feelings. not your words, not your anger, not your feelings. mine.

in return you gave me gentleness which softens my anger and takes me down the path of wondering, wondering what would happen to me if something happened to you. it’s always there – that door – threatening to open on me.

do you ever know what you are to me? do you ever feel how much i need you? most of the time it’s better for me that you don’t. you might take advantage of me if you knew. you might use it against me.

see? there’s the fear and it always sparks the anger.

the hurt feelings weren’t caused by you but you are the safe place to retaliate. because you will love me in spite of me.

won’t you?

It’s so easy vent our frustrations on those we love the dearest, expecting that they will always be there, always understand. It’s easy, but it isn’t good. I’ve lost people in my life that way. Take gentle care. ~Blessings~

Aw we’ve nearly all blown up sometime and disturbed someone we care about and wished we hadn’t. Hope you are getting free of the anger, gal. {{{patalija}}} Bet others need you just the same as you do them 🙂 Be gentle with yourself, okay

gel

September 28, 2002

(((Patalija)))

MJ+

September 30, 2002

I’ll always listen to a vent from a friend. It’s one of the best things you can do for somebody.

RYN: yes, I wish I could sit up here and be afraid for the poor Americans who are being dragged into a war against their wills — but it is practically the entire world that is being dragged into this war, and it makes me very scared, too.

Well, I’m pleased your home:) btw what’s happened to the view from your window? It’s beautiful and I miss it.Hugs

Oops! Thanks for your note patalija. I see it:)

MageB

October 2, 2002

Maybe it is my turn to, “Ommmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!”

Thanks for your notes. i’m very behind on notes and diaries i’d visit anyway if they were not in a noting mood. The pain of the two sets of stiches is more than i thought it would be this far into recovery, which is two weeks. the ones by the cervix are miserable. who knew it could hurt that much. still i’m going to make it, at least it’s not as bad as christopher reeves not getting up!

awe this is very poignant entry of the heart. Good luck, and let the dance of anger float away.

((((patalija))))

Sure liked you singing Happy Birthday to me 🙂 When is yours? … soon, I think but I have forgotten the date. Hugs 🙂

Ollie

October 3, 2002

Dear P, awwww, sometimes I push to the edge only to be confronted with a gentle spirit which pushes back only with love! You can say it so well my dear, hugs,