Texas 6

How strange to spend the first day of 2008 at a Catholic retreat center with a bunch of buddhists. Too bad the very, very pretty one has a girlfriend. I get to call Corey tomorrow, or Thursday. I’m excited about that. I’m trying to be excited about the next ten days of my life, too. Making the yogurt was actually really fun and it’s nice to hear that people like the food. I would love to bake more. Perhaps for Portland baking practice. I wish for lots of colors right now, up and down my wrist and on my mom’s glasses and in my hair and all of that. I expected buddhists to be different. SUWS has taught me a lot about finding what needs to be done and doing it. I am a very effective individual and that is simply a wonderful thing to know about myself. I remember starting new jobs before SUWS and being all wide-eyed and lost and I just feel now like I can easily and efficiently move from task to task. I don’t want my mom to feel ineffective. If anything she should leave here feeling empowered and I think so far that hasn’t been accomplished at all. I wonder, no, I know Carol doesn’t realize that she treats Mom the way grandpa treats her (Carol) and it really frustrates me to see it happening. I just want my mom to be happy and feel proud of herself and amazed by her own power.

I am amazed by my own power.