Hello Mom, It’s been 8 years…

 

so… I’m going to have lunch with my bio mom. First time we will have a pleasant visit in about 8 years. That’s a long time. We were estranged for a good 6, I took my brother out of her care and that made it a little worse for a while. Then when I got pregnant she came to her sense. Babies can fix anything I guess.

It started with me sending her pictures, then we would email back and forth. She stopped calling herself Pamela and started saying she was my mom again. then we talked on the phone a few times. She was really supportive when Jon was in the hospital and helped me through that. She came to me again when my brother needed to get out of my aunts house.

And now we’ve worked up to a visit.

It’ll be interesting, but hopefully good. The baby has never met her. I hope he doesn’t cry. She has a raspy voice from smoking and will probably smell like a cigarette. Maybe he’ll think she’s hilarious. Who knows.

I know it will be okay at the end. But the fact that it’s taken THIS long for my mother to actually want to see me sorta stings.

Oh well. It’s happening so I have to let it go.

There were other things I was coming here to whine about, but now, I just feel like not. yep. I’m gonna go play Guild Wars.

 

 

 

 

 

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September 20, 2013

*hugs* I hope it goes well hun! Good luck. 🙂 love,

September 20, 2013

Hope the lunch goes well!

September 21, 2013

Wishing you the best!!!

September 21, 2013

*hugs* I hope y’all’s lunch doesn’t suck. 🙂

September 21, 2013

*hugs* Try not to take it too personal. I suspect it has more to do with her own issues and her own guilt than it does you. She’s been missing out by not having a relationship with you and your boys. Hopefully, she realizes that and continues to make an effort to be a part of your lives. Enjoy your lunch. *hugs*

September 21, 2013

Hope it goes well!

September 21, 2013

Well try to think about the point that it’s happening now. Some people get no time at all even though they want it. She’s making the move now and wants to be back in your life. I have other things I want to say too sometimes and then other things just take it away from me. What’s that game Guild Wars like.

September 22, 2013

Hope it went well dear….

September 22, 2013

Oh but this is good….with your mother. I hope it continues getting better…. You know I went 8 years without seeing my mother. Or her seeing me. And then I had Froggy and she was RIGHT THERE. And it was strange and a little hurtful. She even cried when she held Froggy which made me feel like I was in the Twilight Zone. Like, Really???? Things DO change when you have a kid. And it’s

September 22, 2013

not always BETTER. I mean babies can make it harder too. Like with my parents feeling entitled. As if they’ve never been anywhere but by my side ya know? It’s absurd. ANYWAY. I hope things go well. Our relationships with our parents are important. Even if they aren’t in our lives we have to find a way to deal with it well you know? <3

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September 23, 2013

I feel you. I’ve not seen my mom since… New Years, 2011? The only time she calls me is to ask for money, to promise to pay it back, and to never EVER actually follow through with anything she says…

September 23, 2013

Hopefully, it all went well *hugs*

Hope this visit goes well. I wish she would have wanted to be in your life sooner as well.

I saw the pics on FB… interested to hear your perspective on how the visit actually went, though! <3

September 23, 2013

Games!! Always good to play games! I will never understand absent parents.