well i’m freakin worried now *Edit damn it

UGH UGH UGH UGH UGH

I’m  here to rant a little, so don’t get all "calm down’ on me because I NEED TO RANT.

so, my dr appt today, several things that were good:

*monitoring: Everything went perfect. Baby was kicking and reacting well and all was fine.

*blood sugars in the lab: perfect! I even ahd a biscuit at breakfast! lol… i’m a suckah

*Dr.’s appt: gained a few pounds, which is to be expected and blah diddly blah. nugget is head down and dr. was in high spirits about all of it. I haven’t dilated or effaced any more so it’s not like all these mother fucking contractions mean anything at this point.

I did a 24 hour urine collection since i had the incident earlier this week.

WELL.

there’s the bad part.

I just got the results back in my email.

It’s 372.

That’s high.

It’s supposed to be under 300.

I also had a +1 in my urine stick when the dr. saw me, but they weren’t worried.

well now I dont’ know what to think!

I’m not sure. My dr. hasn’t called me or returned my emails that I sent. I’m trying to not freak out.

but of course i googled it.

I’m feeling like they will induce me sooner rather  than later. I can go into organ failure and the placenta can abrupt if I develop worsening preeclampisa symptoms and they aren’t treated.

So the treatment is having this baby.

I’m trying to not freak out, but I can’t help it.

Not until I talk to my doctor. I sure hope she doesn’t go home for the weekend and NOT check my damn results and all.

I DON’T KNOW!!!!!

If she doesn’t check them she’ll surely see them by next week and maybe I’ll get a call then.

for now, my mantra is "calm the fuck down monique"

so i’m gonna calm the fuck down as much as I can BUT SHIT.

stupid protein in my mother fucking shit ass bitch ass cunt sucking urine.

obviously, being upset makes me cuss.

*sigh*

I’ll write again if anything happens.

OR… if I get swooped into the hospital, I’ll be updating my facebook. It’s easier to do that there.

or a really REALLY short entry.

god damn it.

*Edit: Well shit fuck bitch whore.

So my dr called me and she wants me to go in tomorrow morning to be evaluated for a possible induction. It could be put off a week if possible, but if they think I need to be induced, then I’ll be induced. Oh the joys never end.

that means I had to call off my failing baby shower. lol. It’s hilarious because at the end of it all only 2 people were going to come anyway. HA! my life is a giant insane suckball of stupid.

ANYWAY… I go in tomorrow and hope that my children behave and not act like fucking idiots in the waiting room because nobody can take them (because my family just LOVES ME and supports me SO MUCH right now. whatever) and everything is just a stupid pile of stupid.

I’m trying to not stress out but shit fuck a bitch and die.

that’s all I’ve got.

for now.

Oh yeah, I have a ticker. Look at that!

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