Chaosbride

October 4, 2011

I’m grouchy! Give me bacon!

Watch out! I’m seriously grouchy! I’ll eat your face off and make you cry!

it’s all for stupid reasons, but whatever.

got paid today but that’s all accounted for. The good thing is that I can get at least my cool HS stickers and my second proof so I can approve my paperback for sales 🙂 I’m also sneaking in my pre-order for Pets. ha ha. Then I’m tapped out. I can’t even afford a pack of gum after that. blah. Whatever. I am not all selfish, I did put into our shared account for gas and randoms like milk.

What sucks is my brothers transportation costs. I seriously hope I only have to put another 20 bucks or something on his crap. Ugh. I hate this. I hope he gets a job soon. New expenses suck. blargh!

I’m already sick of hearing about the presidential election. Ugh.

My temp took a nosedive today, which made me really upset. I cried in the bathroom and cursed my body and prayed to God to just take the painful part of this process away from me. I’m sick of feeling broken and old and like it’s not going to happen. I don’t wan to hear about how it takes time, it didn’t take shit for time when I got pregnant before. But I was young then, and stupid. And whatever. I don’t know what to really do with myself knowing that I’m not. I know I’m not. It doesn’t matter if I haven’t bled yet. It’ll be here. Friday or Saturday, Sunday at the latest. And that will be that.

I’m sick of thinking about it.

But I’ll think it to death anyway!!!!

I’ll distact myself with humanity scar editing. I need to get book 2 out by the 24th. I can dooooo it! If I get it submitted by the 24th, it shouldbe on sale by Halloween. Nice timing eh?

The paperback version should be a lot faster to get out as well.

I’m cramping so much right now. It hurts.

stupid body.

i hate you so much.

Baboo got the game Rage last night. Iwas so excited for some co-op action! We’ve been playing all of the new games we’ve gotten together (yeah, we spend every extra possible cent we get on video games, leave me the hell alone. we handle all our other business!!!!) and now I can’t play with him. The graphics are very nice and the game play looks fun!

There is a co-op section, but it’s just tiny missions and there are only a few of them. I also think they are not going to be as fun as playing through the story with my Baboo.

Oh well.

At least we Resistance, Gears of War, and Kill Zone 3….

I hope they make more games with campagin co-op. I think I can play some Call of Duty with him too, but we haven’t tried yet.

blah video game blah.

I have a breakfast burrito.

it has bacon in it.

I’m suddenly very very happy.

loveyoupeople *muah!*

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(yeah, I have a ticker. SUCK IT. This is part of who I am right now and I want one!)

kirayamato

October 5, 2011

Mmm, I want bacony breakfast burrito!

I wish bacon could make me happy. The way things stand right now, if I had bacon I’d just find a way to abuse somebody with it.

I have two friends right now TTC, both are using fertility treatments. One has been trying for that last 10 years or so and finally is going the fertility route, another has had eggs harvested and fertilized but a negative for pregnancy. She’s absolutely devastated as they’ve been trying for over a year as well. I think everyone has their battles in this area. I consider getting pregnant in 8 months or less pretty damn speedy. Being an old bat myself I have no idea how I managed to get pregnant in 3 months, I constantly feel guilty about it because of my friends that TTC without the same results 🙁 Hope you are able to successfully distract yourself. Distractions are awesome with this kind of thing.

mmmmmmmm bacon 🙂

Storms Afoot

Hoping you’re wrong, and you get a lucky surprise. =) I know it’s extremely disappointing to have to “try again next month”, but…try not to stress too much if that’s the way it ends up being. *hugs*

alright, you can eat my face off OR you can make me cry. you can’t do both!

caty

i had bacon for breakfast too… nom nom. i am so excited for pb hs. if it’s out by halloween i can get it in time for my bd in nov! yay. and you are not old. *hugs* sometimes it happens easily and sometimes it doesn’t. and am also hoping that your period is on vacation… for about 9 months ^_^

KPinK

I think couples who play games together are meant to be! 😉 You are scaring me b/c if things really actually miraculously work with P and me, I want his baby… and I am way older than you. :/ My clock is ticking way faster…so I am routing for you every chance I get! Though I did read that Nia Long is pregnant at 41!!! yay! My coworker always says bacon (or is it ham) is the candy of meats… LOL

RYN: thank you for that persepctive. and yea I do put up with a lot to keep peace, only for the kids. I am glad you said everything you did though, especially since you were in that situation and knowing what you went through, I would not want to see my kids go through… and LMAO at titties in the face… he’d love that… haha I think it will work itself out one way or another. I’m guessing that if he cant deal with this… then I’m not the one…and if I am the one.. he’ll deal with it. This is just another test in our relationship. :/

Rusted Armour

RYN: I’m gonna kill that monkey.

Mmm bacon! I am so excited for the second book. I have a midterm this week but I am going to do editing!!!

bacon and gaming is a good combo. Chris

I wish I could give you my body. 🙁 It’s not like I’m using it to bear children now or anytime soon.

Scarlett Lee

Sends you chicken fried bacon, a popcorn tub FILLED with bacon, and a blt with ten extra orders of BACON. And now I am hungry.

M.C.

Hugs.

K.Frances

Ooh, I had one of those moods recently… Maybe it’s catching? Handle up on that autographed paperback, miss ma’am! I’s been waitin’! Mmmmm… Bacon. 😀 Bacon makes everything better!

SeSsEl

New expenses does suck!! Hope your day gets better!! And yay for editing HS Journal 2 🙂

Bacon cures all 😀 ’nuff said

Missundastood

I LOVE bacon. And by looking at my entries almost a month ago, aunt flo should be stopping by my body sometime this weekend and reeking havoc on my body as well. yay.