i feel weird

 

It just feels weird.

I keep thinking "I’ll never see her again.’

Its making my chest feel heavy.

I’m at work, but I don’t know how to focus.

I almost feel like throwing up right now, it’s odd.

Being at work is worse than being at home. Too much time to think here. to sink low. to find myself getting sad.

i’m sorry if i’m droopy right now. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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July 27, 2010

Sorry for your loss.

I’m so sorry to hear about your aunt 🙁 *big hugs*

July 27, 2010

Don’t apologize for feeling sad. It’s natural. Especially right now. You only found out yesterday. Just try and remember the good things about her. The good memories you had. Stay strong hun. She is still with you.. in your heart.

Its ok to be droopy. *Hugs*

July 27, 2010

I’m so sorry for your loss!!! Words are never enough, I know that. Maybe throwing yourself into your work will help right now, it’s a good distraction

July 27, 2010

It’s really hard to adjust to something like this. I hope you get some distraction.

July 27, 2010

Honey no need to be sorry! No one ever said any kind of loss was easy! She meant something to you, and your feelings towards her death is understandable! I’d be more then lost if it was someone that meant something to me! I’m actually kinda surprised you’re at work today! (Thought you might debate on taking some time off or not.) Hugs.

July 27, 2010

Oh and the kinda feeling like you’re gonna throw up feeling is also part of it as well. It’s your body’s way of trying to adjust to the shock of the loss!

July 27, 2010

my grandfather died a month ago and i still do the same thing- keep catching myself realizing that i’ll never see him ever again. it’s so sad. i’m sorry you’re going through this.

July 30, 2010

I’m so sorry to hear about your aunt. This entry… yes. I know the feeling. Every so often it still creeps up on me. *massive massive massive hugs* *loves* ~

August 2, 2010

im so sorry for your loss!!!!

August 11, 2010

I know this feeling all too well and still am not working. Don’t know if I will ever have a “real” job again. I think I will stick to “the plan” and try to start a business of my own. LATER when I have my heart and my mind back. The year before Jennie died, my little sister died – she was twin to my youngest brother. It was completely unexpected and it took months to find out what she actually died from. It was weird to bury her and not know why she was gone. (She died of a seizure). So there are now 3 hard death anniversaries in August, Jennies, sister Missy, and my husband, father of all my kids. I HATE AUGUST. I am sorry for your loss. This is very belated, but still, I am sorry. I know how hard it is. I hope as I read on that I will find you faring better. ((((HUGS)))