well fuck you too monday! *another rant
and now i get yelled at for 20 minutes by my boss over something I didn’t even realize was wrong.
it’s probably a done deal that i’m getting fired now.
i really really REALLY want to go home and never leave my bed again.
I haven’t worked a lick in the last hour. And I dont’ think I will.
Fuck this place.
i’m DONE WITH IT ALLLL.
Baboo and I have been seriously talking about leaving California. It’s just too expensive here, my job is obviously not secure, and I’m just sick to death of feeling threatened, and like, if I lose my job I lose my entire world.
I don’t know what the employment climate is like in Texas, but I do know that finding housing would be a lot easier. It has coastal territory, so I feel landlocked (I have a weird irrational fear about living in a state that isn’t coastal. Don’t ask me why. Baboo would be able to keep his job because he basically telecommutes anwyay. ALSO, it’s not as hard for him to find work in what he does. He’s a computer brain guy, they always find someone needing their services.
I dunno.
He is surprisingly receptive to it. I think he wants a fresh new start somewhere too. It would be insanely difficult to leave both of our families behind. Though, my family is more likely to end up in Texas with me. ha ha!
But seriously, it is a consideration. If I lose my job or get demoted to a degree that I can’t live off my salary (because it’s not really in my desire to work two full time jobs… and that is what i’d have to do to make myself survive in the california standard of living) than I’m more than willing to just flip California the bird and leave.
I don’t know.
My head hurts right now, just thinking of it all.
It just hurts so much.
I really wish that things were different, but I guess this is life. I don’t get the luxury of those who came before me, with 20 and 30 years of uninterrupted city service to feel confident in. I will be lucky to make 10 years.
I think I have decent marketable skills. I guess I’ve just never had to sell myself to private industry before.
I don’t know.
We’ll see.
It will all be so interesting.
I’m not ready for it and I most certainly don’t invite it.
But if the worst happens, than we’ll just have to make it work.
I am so thankful that I’m not alone.
I have the best man in the world right at my side and I know he won’t let me fall.
Not unless he falls with me.
ha.
I’m sick of crying at work.
This whole place gives me anxiety now.
No wonder I’ve been having all these weird ass dreams about losing my job and stuff.
It’s in the air.
Damn empathy.
Keep positive! I am praying for you!
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May I join you? It’s been that kind of day for me too.
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She is probably just as stressed out as you are! Hang in there.
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Keep being strong. Dont let her see you give in.
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Today is just not being nice to you, is it? I agree with Sarah; she may be on the chopping block as well and is freaked out.
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Ugh that stupid biatch!!
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*hug*
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Mooooove to Hoooouuuuuston… I’m sorry things are so crappy right now. *hugs* I’m afraid I won’t be able to find a job. I haven’t tried yet because we’re not in our new place and currently living 30 min or so from there, so it would be pointless to commute that far to like, bag groceries or something. Ugh.
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why not look for gov. jobs in texas?
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I have heard that about Texas too, and the houses are much less expensive than they are even in AZ… I wouldnt want to live there though… soooo humid. (At least the places I’ve been.)
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RYN: I appreciate the note anyway, thanks. 🙂 Come down to the Gulf Coast and party with us! Texas came to mind to me today as well. My husband is not receptive to a move, but we’re not looking at a job loss either.
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Wow, hun, I’ve heard you complain about your job before, but I didn’t know that it effected you with this much anxiety! Sorry it does! In the meantime…it sucks YET AGAIN, on top of that, to get bitched out for something that you didn’t realize you did wrong! (I hate that, ESPECIALLY when it wasn’t intentional!) I hope whatever you’re comfortable with works out for you hun! And, DITTO, on
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the “Having a wonderful man to be at your side thing, and not and NEVER letting you fall! Phillip is the only one who could make me believe in that! I hope Baboo continues to prove himself to you too, where the devotion is concerned! Hope your crying and anxiety ease up soon! HUGS
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*hugs* Fuck Mondays up the ass with a giant purple studded dildo.
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Yay – move to Texas – then when I go to visit my sister I can meet you!!!! :o) That would be fun. IT WOULD BE FUN, RIGHT! *stares with beady eyes* :o)
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Move to Wisconsinnnnnnnnnnn! I’m here 😉 I’d probably be crying and freaking out too though… It’s understandable.
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I dont know where in Texas, but he could find a job in Houston pretty easy.
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The Texas economy has pretty well dodged the recession. It’s not booming. But is much better than California. For what you pay for a very small stucco house in Downey, Hawthorne, Torrance, etc. – you get a very nice 4-bedroom brick home in a suburb of any large city. And a MANSION in a non-metropolitan area. The salaries aren’t as high though, but you’ll live much better.
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I am so sorry this is all happening to you! It sucks. 🙁
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Baboo and I have been seriously talking about leaving California. It’s just too expensive here, my job is obviously not secure, You know…there are still plenty of jobs around Charlotte. As long as your expertise doesn’t involve banking.
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I hope you get to keep your job. I really do.
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