not fixin typos

 

 

 

 

 I made this soup last night.

chicken broth, frozen veggies, pre cooked cubed chicken, and pokemon noodles (from a box of mac and cheese, i didn’t use the cheese).

it wasn’t half bad.

i have it for lunch today.

i’ll just cry into it.

 

 

 

 I just want to apologize for not reading and noting today. I’m jsut depressed.

it’s not so much the facebook and instant messenger crap, that’s just icing on this shitstorm of a cake.

it’s Jonathon.

I just dont’ understand. He can be so well behaved and one thing doesn’t go his way and he goes ballistic.

It’s not like he was a spoiled rotten little shit who got everything he pointed at. I was never rich enough for that and I always tried to instill some sort of structure for him. I can’t blame it on moving around or any of it because we are stable now. he even has a consistent male role model in his life.

He’s just of control and I’m sad.

I’m really really sad.

I just wnat to cry.

i dont’ want ot edit my typos and any of it.

I’m just sad.

and no… i can’t fix that box.

I think I"ll delete it.

it’s being stupid and annoying.

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I’m so sorry you’re having a rough day. I just read over all of your entries and my heart hurts a little bit for you. I can’t imagine why Jonathon is being this way, I hope that something can be done about it. I really hope that the meds do work and that he’s not a zombie…maybe [like w.w. said] this will be better for him. Do you think that he might be bi-polar? I know that children/people who are cannot function w/o some sort of stabilizing medication. I know how you feel, wanting to do this w/o involving any type of meds, hopefully it can get to that point soon. 🙁 I’m so sorry.

October 8, 2009

You know, sometimes, no matter what you do or dont do…that’s just the way it is. I have had similar issues with my now 18 year old. ?? Dont know why or how I could have done anything different, so I just move on along and hope for the best.

October 8, 2009
October 8, 2009

Hmm… Looks like I have some catching up to do, seeing as I’m LOST! And I wasn’t gonna say it before, but I’m really not a fan of “the box…” I just don’t like it for some reason and I feel as though it gets in the way!!! lol. K. Off to read back…. *HUGS*

October 8, 2009

I’m sorry hun. I honestly don’t know what I would do in your situation. I think you’ve handled it as best as possible in your situation. I hope things get better soon.

The meds might just help reconnect something that may be askew. Its not a BAD thing that you are talking to the doctor about the meds. YOU didnt do anything wrong and its not your fault. You really are a great mom.

October 8, 2009

I may have missed an entry (looking at notes); did you decide to go for meds? It’s interesting that his teacher wants him to be tested for “gifted.” I was impressed to hear that he has a collection of stories. I think that’s awesome, especially for his age, and on top of that, so unusual for a kid today…. most of them are semi- illiterate!!

October 8, 2009

Maybe you could try and get some alone time for a one to one chat? I’m sure you’ve tried it before, but keep trying – I was messed up as a kid.. well, a teen more, and I wouldn’t talk about it at all, but my parents wore me down eventually. Not in a harsh way – just one day my mum put it like “you’re not very happy right now, are you?” and it all came out – I was in and out of therapy that was no

October 8, 2009

use at all – and they could have easily medicated me, but I’m glad they didn’t – more than anything, it’s a stigma having been on mood stablisers when you’re trying to find employment and suchlike, here at least. Eh, getting a bit off track – but I suppose what I’m trying to say is, I know you’re feeling at a loss, like there’s nothing else you can do and you want to give up – but just talk to him

October 8, 2009

one more time. Just alone, not in a way that makes him feel like he’s in trouble, you know what I mean. Just a loving, concerned question and see what happens. I hope I don’t sound patronising, I’m sure you have tried talking to him in the past – I’m just… worried about you both, I suppose. You’re stronger than you give yourself credit for. *hugs*

October 8, 2009

Im with everyone. You probably really need to look for answers with a child counselor/psychiatrist or something about your son’s behavior (which might include meds). Especially since (as you mentioned) they want to test his aptitude. He’s definitely not the first smart kid with behavioral problems.

October 8, 2009

they say that these kids are the smartest kids, they just can’t focus. My doc told me it’s like they are missing a certain chemical and giving them the meds will fix it. We don’t deny asthmatic kids their meds, so we shouldn’t deny theirs. Don’t take it as a failure, look at like a cure & they can adjust it so he’s not a zombie. My OD was on meds & was able to get off them on her own. >^..^<

October 8, 2009

There is a calm after every storm. I am glad you have baboo to be there with you through this.

October 8, 2009

Aw, I’m sure he’ll be fine. *hugs hugs*

October 8, 2009

Ooo poor you and poor Jonathon! I hope you find something that will work well for him. I’m sure you will, but it might take some trial and error to get it right. Cheer up! It’ll get better, I know it.

October 8, 2009

My mom used to move me around ALOT when I was young and it wasn’t until we were stable that I got out of control, cause I wasn’t used to it.

October 9, 2009

boys can be so loving, then right little shits 🙁

October 9, 2009

*kicks box*

RYN: I was fickle and wound up ordering “If there’s a Problem Yo! I’ll solve it.” Instead of “don’t hassel the hoff”. ICE ICE BABY. Jim got “gunga Lagunga. Gunga Lagunga, gunga” from Caddyshack.

October 9, 2009

You’ve been fairy-a-fied!

Hmmmm…

October 9, 2009

Damn you woman for not being here to see yourself fariyafied! http://www.opendiary.com/entryview.asp?authorcode=D738879&entry=10582&mode=

October 11, 2009

I hate it when your sad … your usually what cheers up my day… well keep in mind your OD and FB friends still love you !!!