anxiety attack, thanks *E and now more anxiety!

i REALLY REALLY HATE DOCTORS.

really.

i just hate the whole thing.

so i got an appointment FOR A MONTH FROM NOW.

because I want a female doctor and not some scroungy man all up in my vagina and in my business who can’t possibly be quite as understanding as a female doctor wo uld be.

I feel all tensed out and angry becuase I feel forced into this stupid dumb I HATE IT SO MUCH doctors appointment.

I DON’T WANT OT GO.

IT’S MAKING ME CRY.

i’m crazy. I admit this.

I just really feel anxious about it all.

If I feel fine when I get closer to that date I’M NOT GOING.
i’ll probably be on my period anyway. and then I’m REALLY NOT GOING.

fuck everything.

bah.

*EDIT*

And now I really  hate everything.

I just looked up what an ovarian cyst was… and what the symptoms of it are.

 

 

and i have them.

abnormally late period.

Abnormally painful period.

Pressure or feeling of "fullness" in the abdomen where the ovaries are.

yes, yes, and yes.

fuck me.

it’s probably some giant horrible thing that is going ot make them take out my ovaries.

and i’ll never have another baby.

the end.

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/hughug you will be find hon 🙂 Chris

September 23, 2009

calm down. All women get Overian cysts. They usually clear themselves up. I had a pelvic ultrasound done 2 years ago and they found cysts. They were so minor though and went away on their own.

ryn: lol, okay. in a fantasy world, i’d have a library room, yes. books arranged in alphabetical order by author. i’d have a comfy recliner in it and a smokereater so i could have a cigar in there for winter reading. but in the summer, i MUCH prefer to read outdoors, so i’d have a similar setup to what i have now. comfy chair under a patio with lots of shade, but still well lit…running water nearby, preferably in a goldfish pond like i have now. that’s just really relaxing to me…and i get to feed the fish when i take lil breaks!

I have PCOS and have cysts constantly…you will live [that’s the good news]. The bad news? If they continue to bother you, it’s probably a good idea to have them checked out. Sucks. 🙁 I still think you’re awesome, even if you’re having womanly issues! 😀

September 23, 2009

Relax. It’s a month from now. You will be okay.

September 23, 2009

Hey, my sister in law gets ovarian cysts all the time, and has had them removed in the past – it’s unlikely they’d have to remove your ovaries – ESPECIALLY if you catch them early, which is exactly why you should keep the appointment.

September 23, 2009

oh girl, ovarian cysts don’t mean you have to have them taken out OR you won’t have anymore kids. My SIL has them and is pregnant with her second child and has no problems with the cysts except the super heavy painful periods.

September 23, 2009

That is so bizarre… RYN: Te is going back to Pennsylvania to live for a few months. She met a girl there. She likes girls. She wanted the girl to come live with us, but I said no. So she went to go live with her. 🙁 I’m sad and scared.

September 23, 2009

YOu’re the only one updated today!!! Weird…. and I a had a fee more handwirrten ones. Did you see those?

September 23, 2009

She’s 18. 🙁

September 23, 2009

Lets hope thats not it.

September 23, 2009

HUGS. Just go no matter what!! Make sure everything is ok. I love you! You will be fine 😀

September 23, 2009

Yep, I found both the people I was looking for. Thanks :]

September 24, 2009

ouch hugs!

September 24, 2009

My Mom had one of her ovaries out in 1990 because she had a ginormous cyst that burst. In 1992 we welcomed my little sister Julia. Don’t give up hope. ~

September 26, 2009

RN: I have PCOS. It’s not that bad. They can be fixed REALLY easy with birth control. 🙂

September 26, 2009

That’s probably a very “simple” procedure… and it’s only painful on one side, right? *hugs*