Chaosbride

September 13, 2009

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aw man, monday, i hate your ass!

Monday is a fucking bitch.

In SO many ways.

I have a lot of things I should talk about. Things that have happened and things that are going on.

I just can’t bring myself to do it.

I had a really bad episode with Jonathon this weekend, it sucks that it happened right after a counseling session.

I hate to think that if he doesn’t get better on his own I’ll have to give him pills.

His temper is just so wild and I almost admitted him to the hospital.

yes it was that bad.

then i had a scare with the possibility of losing my job or not being able to eat because of after school care. But 2 good things:

1. Baboo was ready to step up and cover the cost of child care if I needed it. I didn’t even ask him. He’s amazing.

2. I wrote a horribly heart wrenching letter ot the management of the after school program (that is free, that the boys were on a waiting list for) and they moved them to the top of the list and now they are in it starting today.

THANK GOD.

I couldn’t keep myself employed if I had to leave 2 hours early every day, take that time with no pay, and virtually shine a spotlight on my horrible circumstances.

so yeah, God answered my prayers and all that got fixed.

There’s more, but really… not quite ready to say anything.

maybe tomorrow.

*Hugs* Thats all I got.

Sperry

September 14, 2009

I’m sorry. It sounds like you’re having a really hard time. I hope that you can feel like this is a safe place. If you can’t, I suggest getting rid of whoever makes you feel that way. You need to have a place to go to let it out that feels absolutely safe to you.

No Heart No Foul

Well, thats good news that they got in. It may be small, but at least it’s something, right?

KPinK

I’m so glad that worked out for you.

sepiasmile

I really hope that he gets the support he needs, without the need for medication. *hugs*

mrsckugs

that whole after school care thing is rough. *hugs* jon will be okay lady.

*Teej*

*hugs* I’m glad Baboo was willing to step up and help you out. And glad the child care all figured out. I hope you get things figured out with JOnathon.

Beautiful406

We are here when you are ready. I’m sorry things seem to suck right now. I hope they get better and fast. I’m glad Baboo stepped up for you. It’s good to have that support. Let me know if you need anything.

::hugs::

Phade

what if I eat others after I kill them so that they don’t go to waste? I’m glad that worked out for your kids and yourself. It sounds like they/you really need this.

M.C.

Wow man…that sounds pretty rough, with Jonathon! I really hope you’re able to find some way, of being able to help calm him down, without the assistance of medication, and also without having to admit him to a hospital! (I really wouldn’t want him to have to GO THERE! ‘Cause, really…from MY experience of it…THOSE PLACES DON’T DO ANY GOOD, FOR KIDS! I’M TELLING YA NOW! (They f*** them up,

up even MORE, rather then, “doing anything to HELP them,” in my opinion!) (Trust Me! I was there, (under a mis-diagnosis, no less), and IT DIDN’T HELP ME AT ALL!) I’ll really be praying for him hun! ‘Cause…such INTENSE ANGER, for a little boy, is so OVERWHELMING, and NOT HEALTHY to have! HUGS