useless

another strange and useless night.

After driving home to get my gym clothes after work I tried to get to the gym, but sorta got lost (I don’t know HOW) and only got about 20 minutes there. I picked up Baboo at his request and my brother had cooked some chicken strips for us to eat. I enjoyed them, but I guess Baboo didn’t. Whatever.

Baboo had a headache night before last… and he had a headache again last night.

So he just went to sleep and I watched a few things on my DVR and then passed out myself.

No sex. Again. I’m trying to not be a total sex addict here, but jesus. I need to get laid. I hate the myth that boys want it all the time, because obviously, they DON’T.

I also wanted to have a "talk" with him, but in his current mood and physical condition, it wasn’t going to be successful, so I just let it lie.

I do have a few things I want to ask him… but maybe another day.

I don’t know.

woke up this morning feeling meh and lost then found my keys and got to work late. So I guess I’ll be here an extra 15 minutes to make up for it.

what.evah.

I didn’t pack a lunch so I think I’m gonna have subway.

I’m actually NOT in the mood for a spicy chicken bowl! Can you believe it?

I am actually not in the mood for anything, I still feel full. but that will probably change by lunchtime.

in 4 hours and 7 minutes.

I should do some work.

but work is stinky and stupid and me hateses it!

So Baboo has a PS2 that he’s gonna give me to give to Jon for his birthday. I just need to buy new chords and controllers. that’s gonna work out fabulously. He wants this Lego Star Wars game (which is really hard to find!) so I’ll see if I can get that and then some art supplies.

Yeah.

So did I mention that my oooooold best friend, I’ll call her E, contacted me on Facebook? Yeah… a few years ago she found my "fake" profile on myspace (a safe one that if someone searches my name, they’ll find… just in case family or church people start looking for me. No need for them to see me being a hooligan!)… ANNNYWAY…

She contacted me there, but we just fought (because I just dropped off her radar after she basically kept snubbing me. I was really close to her and her family, but things just went bad) and stopped talking.

So I guess now she wants to stop being mean and wants to repair our friendship. I’ll give it a go. It’s not like I have so many friends I can’t stand it… so whatever.

I’m not sure if I can forgive her everything. She laid a really cruel judgement down on me (basically calling me a bad parent and a slut) when she wasn’t that much better (didn’t have any kids yet, but cheated on her fiance up until the day before their wedding  and had 3 pregnancy scares where she wasn’t sure who the father was… and if it was the guy she was cheating with she wouldn’t be able to hide because she and her fiance are as pale as the driven snow an the "other man" was black…)… and only wanted to talk to me after she got pregnant like suddenly I was a great person again and I didn’t want to bother with two faced female-ness… We lived less than a mile from each other and she never came to visit me or invited me over or accepted when I asked to come by, she bought a house and I only saw it once… just a mess… all of it…

ANYWAY… she wants to be friends again.

we’ll see.

she has 2 kids now and is still married, which is a lot farther along than I thought she’d be. So that’s good for her. huzzah and all that jazz.

Anywayyyyyyz…. what am I talking about?

I have no idea.

I guess I should get to work. I’ll be back…