Yellow Thoughts

It’s been awhile, and I know you’ve missed it:

I have to pee.

I really do.

So I called the social worker and asked for a supervisor… and HAD TO LEAVE MORE MESSAGES.

It’s really retarded and I’m trying to stay patient, but UGH.

I want some sort of decision so I can start making plans and things.
 

I know for sure I’ll need help with at least food, but if I can get a little bit of money that would help too. I want to buy a room divider and possibly a bed for him and a dresser and some sort of storage cabinet.

I can’t even start planning such things if I don’t know what’s happening.

I’d hate to start planning like he’s staying and have them place him back with my crazy ass mother.

It’s a damn mess, that’s what it is.

It makes me mad.

I know they have are overworked and too many caseloads, but I’m making it super easy on them.

Grant me guardianship. the end.

Whatever.

blah.

I really have to pee.

I’m not looking forward to lunch because it’s weird.

Steak with bread.. and eggrolls. possibly a muffin with butter. (I’m eating like I’m pregnant, ha ha. but I’m NOT… can’t have a baby without sperm in the vagina..)

I forgot I asked for eggrolls last night and there they were this morning in the fridge.

so i’m going to eat them!!!!

I hate spelling refridgerator.

or is it refrigerator?

whatever… see why i hate it?!!!!

Work is blah today.

I’m doing things, but there are hushed whispers about how our productivity should go down since they are taking away a day of work… so I’mw orking even slower than normal. Is that possible?! (Look for Blue Blue Dress later today perhaps…)

screw them all with giant crowbars!!!!

I also might take an hour of lunch, but don’t tell anyone! hahahaha.

Nobody cares.

Least of all me.

Stupid city.

I’m glad that they are at least trying to get the owners of the Staples Center to pay for the THREE THOUSAND MOTHER FUCKING POLICE OFFICERS that were deployed yesterday.

that’s just SICK.

sick and wrong.

Ugh.

I’m glad everythign was calm. They didn’t even have the huge crowds they thought they would.

so ugh.

and the AEG guy is all "shame on the city for not giving him a memorial free of charge" (paraphrasing)… uhh no assface executive fuck… we don’t have to do ANYTHING. it’s not the CITY’S RESPONSIBLITY.

ugh.

just ugh.

god the urge to pee is growing.

I wonder if I’ll get laid tonight.

Probably not.

I am so confused with my relationship right now.

I don’t know what to do.

I know the different sides and angles, but I don’t know what to actually do about any of them.

confusion. yo. what it is.

anyway… lunch countdown is 9 minutes.

wheee!!!!