resisting urges

I almost got an iphone last night.

I really wanted one!

OMG, it’s so sleek and pretty and makes my tech-slut side get all moist and I wanted to hump the phone.

Of course, there was PORN on the store display phone, so that would have made it easier. I made baboo erase it. What idiot would do that?  A kid could go up to that phone. I meant to tell them, but I forgot.

I ended up getting my little brother this cute little phone. I have to mail in the rebate to get my 50 bucks back.

I paid all of my bills and I’m ok till next paycheck *shwew*

I don’t know what I’m going to get my son for his birthday. I want to get him a big box of art supplies because he loves to draw and such. I might also let him pick a game or two for his DS or the playstation.

Hell, I might just buy him a playstation. Playstations are really cheap right now. Not the ps3… the ps2… I could probably find a used one at Gamestop! I’m sick of not being able to play my games cuz they’re hogging my system!

I think I’ve decided to get an xbox when I have the money.

I don’t know.

i don’t even HAVE ANY MONEY.

what am i talking about?! arrrrrgh.

last night I splurged and got chinese food for dinner. It was so boss.

I loved it.

looooooved iiiiiiit.

I love chili peppers that burn the top of my mouth and make my nose burn and my eyes water.

I feel sorta sick.

I just ate a bunch of nuts.

I’m really horny. but it’s weird.

I feel almost like it’s chained in a box because I’m stressed.

I also can’t get super freaky with an extra kid in the house.

argh.

I want to get super freaky.

I need to find a beach "table" for our beach trip next week. I hate sand getting in my food. They must make some sort of portable cloth table thingie like the chairs… right?

I want to get in the ocean and roll around in waves.

I need a release.

I did not have ice cream last night like I wanted.

I’m going to the gym today for the first time in like a month.

I need to go back.

I still need Jonathons birth cert for the kids club… but if my brother stays I have built in baby sitter and I won’t need it… I still have the offer to lower my membership… so we’ll see.

I left another message for the social worker, but I think I’m gonna call the main line.

I think I’ll do it right now.

I’m sick of waiting to know what the hell they are doing. And I’d really love to get some more of my brothers stuff.

He only has 2 outfits.

bah.

there were parrots flying over my house last night. It was pretty cool.

I’m not quite sure where they came from.

a flock of parrots.

it’s not the congo!

are parrots even in the congo?

or just the rain forest.

in brazil.

you KNOW they have huge bugs there!!!!

I’m on a l unch countdown.  2.5 hours.

I’ve only had a handful of nuts so far.

i’m not hungry yet.

but i want to eat.

is that a disorder?

whatever.

gonna go call social workers now.