My life is sorta retarded

OMG… I’ve been on another dumb planet.

And I didn’t feel like updating. Everything just felt crazy.

I don’t really even have time to really think about what to write at this point. So I’ll bullet some stuff and elaborate later… I think.

Friday:

*I can’t even remember Friday. oh yeah, I wrote about it. I didn’t do much… I don’t know…

*I was going to make chicken for dinner but Baboo took us out. it was pretty tasty. I got a pomegranate margarita. yum!

*We went home and drank some more… we both got pretty drunk on sparkling red wine. (and he also had beer).

*Lots of sex occured adn we were both hurting the next day. ha ha

*My oldest son MIGHT have been traumatized.

Saturday:

*Went to my dads for a little birthday celebration for Jacob.

*My dad was in a "good mood" and he was really nice to Baboo, they talked and watched basketball together. It was cute.

*Played a little DDR, ate too much food, felt very comfortable with Baboo around my family

*Went home and passed out…

Sunday:

*Baboo was finishing laundry and we watched Cloverfield. I liked that movie even though I hated the ending and the fact that the girl they were chasing was still alive. BULLHONKETY!

*I dropped Baboo off at home and spent the rest of the day chasing a cat around. Yes, our dumb cat got out and ran away (Ember, the dark grey one) and was gone for hours. She came back and I thought that was that… until Jonathon let her out THREE MORE TIMES in teh span of 30 minutes. I was livid. It was really insane.

*Jacob got water guns for his birthday and my children proceeded to spray water all over the house after repeatedly telling them to NOT SPRAY THE GUNS IN THE HOUSE. I could have killed them.

*Did I mention I got my couch on Sat morning? Yeah, it’s way bigger than I remember, and it’s lovely. I adore having a real couch now! I need to clean it tho…

*I need a big screen tv to go with my couch…

*I got a call back from the car dealer that I was "pre approved"… riiiiiight. I decided I"d just go in early on Monday and see what the deal was.

*I really can’t remember the end of this day… uhhh.

Monday:

*got up early and went to the car dealer. I made a somewhat foolish deal and now I have a pre owned 2007 Nissan Ultima. It’s pretty luxurious inside and the only amenties I’ve given up is the giant trunk space, the compass, and the anti-glare rearview mirror. I have everything else, including a moon roof, which I love. I didn’t even realize it had a moon roof until I drove off the lot.

*What about my other car you say? Well, I guess the assfaces car really was reposessed, it’s jacked my credit up to high heaven. My score is like 517… horrible. So… they wouldn’t take my kia as a trade. It has 91K miles, it’s a mess, and nobody wants it. I got swindled a little, in that I got a loan for the used car and they suggested I just let the other car "go" and deal with the remainder of that loan seperately.

So that’s what I’m gonna do. I’ll call Wells Fargo at some point this week and just tell them I’m voluntarily giving it back because it’s not afforadable anymore (and it’s not really. It needs at least $500 in brakes and the transmission is failing. With a $640 car payment, I’m never going to be able to afford to do much with the car in way of repairs and it’ll die and i’ll be stranded with NO CAR and no ability to get a loan with my current credit. I doubt the kia would last another year… hell probably not another 6 months. So I"m just gonna eat another repo… it’s probably gonna take 100 points off my score and fuck me up for years. But according to the financial guy at the dealership (who swindled me, i know he did) he said if I stay in good standing with the current loan I have, they will finance me again because they like me… or something. Plus, I’m hoping this car lasts another 4 years and that will put me at least a little bit better.

I will try to negotiate with Wells Fargo. Maybe they will refinance the remainder of the loan and let me have like… $100 dollar car payments. I dunno. i still want to register it as not being moved for now because I dont’ want to drive it and pay insurance on it. So I just want to park it and be done with it. I’ll see what happens right?

I dunno. I think my fear of my car dying really scared me into a stupid situation. But here I am anyway. At least I have a reliable car with a warranty for the next 5 or 6 years and the chance to just start over from square one.

I doubt I’ll ever be able to buy a house. Not till I’m like 40… ugh.

Oh well. I guess I messed up my life enough to this point, so I eat it. EAT IT!!!!

Anyway, after that we went home and the children once again let the cats out another 5 or 6 times.

The last time, she ran right into the dog run with the Pit Bull. They stared at each other and when she ran he chased her. Id id not stay to see the aftermath. and if you think I was going to fight a pit bull for a cat, you are wrong.

I went out a few minutes later to see damage and she ran up to me. She was covered in drool, but no bites. I took her in and she is officially a leashed cat while she is inside… tied up to furniture so she can’t run out… it’s stupid, but it’s all I can think to do. She’s in heat and just wants to go yowling around outside. I suppose, since I might save $100 bucks a month from my car payments (who knows really though… ugh!) I can hopefully get her fixed soon and she won’t be so eager to go running outside. I d unno.

I don’t think I can keep chasing her though. I dont’ want to be irresponsible and horrible, but chasing a strong willed cat around outside is not my idea of a good time. Blah.

so I binged on pepsi again last night (didn’t eat dinner cuz I’m stupid, obviously) and passed out around 11.

I feel really sorta lame with my car deal this weekend. One part of me thinks I did what I needed to do, another part things I am lame and going to regret it.

It’s a little bit of both, but not much I can do. I have a feeling that Wells Fargo will work with me on refinancing and hopefully getting a really cheap payment. but if they don’t then I just have to eat it. Eat it all. *sigh*

I’m glad that they took the car from that other fool though, even if it did mess me up.

My life is sorta retarded, isn’t it.

*sigh*

If you read all this, you’re amazing. I know that was wordy and lame. I made a rush decision and now I’m sorta not knowing how it’s gonna effect me. Whatever. It is done.

I can’t get too frustrated about it.

And please, I’d rather not get too many notes about how lame I am for doing this car thing. It’s obvious that I already know.