Do the Emo Shuffle

The elevators in my office just broke down.

I’m glad I’m only on the 4th floor.

An hour has passed.

and now they are working!

oh whee!

Good, I didn’t want to take the stairs.

Baboo just called me.

He noticed that I wasn’t around.

He said he missed me in his own Baboo-ish way.

I needed that.

I was feeling all… unwanted and unnoticed and just like a dumbass ridiculous emotional hormone infested FEMALE… his attention and acknowledgement of my absence has started to set me to rights.

it’s not changing the fact that I’m crying over EVERYTHING and freaking out and having anxiety attacks for no damn reason…

but it did make me feel less like a giant pile of black holed nothingness.

And then I come and read these fantastical fabulous notes that make me cry MORE and just… the help that I’m getting with these roadblocks is so enormous I can’t even describe how thankful and happy I am to have people on my side helping me. It makes me feel less like I’m drowning. I love you guys!!!!

 

I have 45 minutes of work left and I just might make it.

Can’t promise I won’t cry again though.

*sigh*

I just feel raw and like every emotion that could possibly come at me is bombarding my senses.

I don’t know what’s up with that, but it’s very depressing in a lot of ways.

But I can feel it lifting a little and for that I am greatful.

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May 12, 2009

I’m on the 4th floor too…. 🙂

May 12, 2009

hell yeah, we’re on your side!!!!!

May 12, 2009

Echo *Clio*! Of Course, we’re on your side! Cause, we care about ya! Otherwise, we wouldn’t bother reading ya! 🙂 I’m kind of worried about these anxiety attacks you’re having though! I’m just hoping they’re not based on the fear of “Him doing anything to abandon you!” I hope your feelings, aren’t determined by how he treats you hun! Ryn: Yeah, I know! Ugh!

May 12, 2009

*hugs*

May 12, 2009

*hugs*

May 12, 2009

well, a little happier is better than nothing at all. I hope it continues to lift. If not, I think you should definitely treat yourself to ice-cream and chocolate!

May 12, 2009

4 flights isn’t bad. A friend of mine works on the 28th floor, and had to walk down once. Not fun!

May 12, 2009

Don’t cry anymore! It will all be okay. 🙂 It always has been before!

May 12, 2009
May 12, 2009

That’s what we’re here for 🙂

May 12, 2009

YOUR MOM is a pile of black hole filled nothingness. black holes filled WITH DICKS. buuuuuurn.

May 12, 2009

a black hole filled with dicks would actually be pretty cool. a million dicks compressed by gravity into a single dense point. truly, this was the thinking man’s mom joke.

May 12, 2009

We’re all here for you cos we love you!!!! You’ll get through everything, I know it.

B+
May 12, 2009

(hug) I am on the first floor, but then again… it’s not work.

May 12, 2009

at least its just the 4th floor…could have been worse. u coulda been on the 20th floor! yea, i am fatigued and crazy right now too…

May 12, 2009

Isnt it funny, I really depend on OD and my notes and reading other’s diaries, journeys, etc. too.

May 13, 2009

pretty girl

May 13, 2009

Use the stairs more you slacker 😉 Aww feeling a wee bit emotional at the moment are we lass? *hugs* RYN: No enjoyable wet kisses here. Gawd that comment reminded me of the poor girl I slobbered over back in uni whilst buzzing my nut off. Haha hey she must have been quite out of it too as she pulled me having watched me bounce up and down on the same sport for about 2 hours non-stopin the club!!

May 13, 2009

at my last job, i wa on the 35th floor, there was a tornado warning, we got on the elevators, the electric went out and we were stuck on 34. They finally got the doors open and we had to walk down blah. my ass was sore

*grins* You like?

May 13, 2009

I really hate days like that, but I am glad that things are getting a little better for you emotionally.