doom doom doom

I think I’m just doomed today.

I went to the credit protection site that I signed up for a 30 day trial (I’m cancelling before the 30 days is over though, ha ha) and I just looked over my credit.

Damn I suck.

that fuckers car? The account is closed. And I guess they repossessed that fools car in December (at least it has the code of a repossession…). I have no idea. I don’t care. They haven’t gotten into written contact with me and if they are relying on a phone message, they are lame. I know they have to get to me in writing, so I’m just waiting for that.I don’t know if he’s paying or what. 13 grand is owed on it. *le sigh* Whatever.

My car is fine. Even though I’ve been paying sorta late, they  have me in the green on all my payments.

That fucking apartment complex I left has me in collections for 300 bucks for god knows what. I guess I’ll pay that, but I’m not sure who I’m supposed to pay it to. ha ha! I have to look through my mail.

My B of A account is all fucked up (and closed) ha ha. damn it.

I have a bunch of green good accounts, but yeah… right now I’m just sorta boned with the few bad ones I have.

It’s really just discouraging. I want to cry.

WHATEVER.

bah!

I don’t think I should go look at that stuff when my day is bad. It makes me want to cry. It’s all fixable… I suppose. god I could just scream. and punch things.

i’m really hungry.

but breakfast can either be a pile of dry cereal I’m not in the mood for, crackers with peanut butter which I don’t want, almonds and raisins which sounds anything but appetizing… or air.

I can’t have air.

I must eat.

god. this just blows.

This afternoon can’t come fast enough. 

I’m just waiting for my car to break down. 

ICING on the cake.

*sigh* 

and here I am being a brat buying myself toys.

i’m stupid.

*sigh*