rapid fire stress entries

 

 

 

Yeah,I guess I’m rapid firing entries this morning, but I’ms tressing.

So I go to fill out the forms.

THERE ARE SO MANY

and I’m not sure which I’m supposed to fill out! 🙁

So yeah… I also have to get some info from home (stupid marriage certificate) cuz I can’t even completely fill out the FIRST one.

I’m so mad.

I wish I had held my temper and didn’t trash the copies of the ones I had done. Oh well.

So now I just have to do it.

I’m feeling more encouraged. I read that I can actually mail him the documents and serve him that way, but I’ll try it in person… I guess. I dunno.

I really don’t want to put it on Baboo.

But it says that I can’t do it, it has to be someone not involved in the proceedings. I’d actually hire someone to serve the papers if it wasn’t so expensive.

Oh well.

Maybe I’ll try the mail route and if it gets returned then at least I know he doesn’t live there and it prevents him from having a damaging effect on my relationship.

blah.

i hate all of this.

so i guess the papers will get filled out tomorrow.

I sorta want to go home and cry.

and eat NINE SLICES OF PIZZA.

*sigh*

So I read some notes about how I should deal with my child who is peeing the bed to get me to come get him.

I am going to try to NOT punish him and try to talk to him and show him love.

but it’s really frustrating and I just want to scream at him.

I know it’s horrible and that’s why I WON’T scream at him. but acting like a baby to get his way is ALWAYS  his MO and I don’t know what to do besides make it not so much fun for him when he does it.

blah.

i’m not good with the psychology of this child.

of either of them.

i suck as a parent.

i should just kill myself.

that’ll make them great adults! probably genuine grade A psycho killers!

yay!

I’M JUST KIDDING.

I’m just stressed.

this shit is making me want to do some really bad things.