so you all updated TODAY do you!!!!

 

 

 

 

So today everyone chooses to update, eh.

The day that I am home feeling depressed and I take this 2 hour nap and do NOTHING.

I could have done something.

but i did shit squat.

And I should go pick up Jacob, but I’m waiting till 5. Fuck it.

I pay for it, let him staaaaaay.

blah.

I feel really sad.

I know one reason for it.

But the other half of the reason is sort of elusive.

I hate being a girl.

I hate this.

blah.

so i’m trying to wake myself up when really i just want to go back to sleep.

it’s also really hot. stupid heat.

I’m surviving with the fan blowing on me.

i should have cleaned my room. anything but lay the way I did.

fuck. what a waste of life i can be.

this is horrible.

i want to shake it.

stupid oppressive… whatevers holding me down!

a wells fargo minion called me today saying "honey,i really need a call back today" trying to be sweet.

but i wasn’t falling fo rit!

as it stands now, if for some eason i don’t get stimulated by the govt. (har har) then I will have just enough to pay my car payment, even though it’ll be late.

so yeah. woo.

whatever.

i feel so shackled. i want OUT of this madness.

i can’t wait to wrap all of it up.

neatly. with a bow.

including my divorce.

*sigh on *

anyway, i go. this meaning was no entry.

eh?

this entry has no meaning.

do you SEE how messed up i am?

i don’t know.

i feel sort of sick too…