trying to release

So I’m distressed and cranky and confused and just a little bit overwhelmed.

but I’m ok. I do this all the time right?

I want things to rewind a little bit and go back to how they were while simultaneously moving on past some of the bullshit into the better half of things.

Does that make sense?

*sigh*

I guess I don’t make sense. I think too much. I talk too much. I whine too much. I complain too much. I lament too much. I sigh too much. I judge too much. I care too much.

I want too much.

I always think "if I just had THIS I’d be happy."

but I don’t think that would be so. It would just be more problems on top of problems.

I gotta go do work, but I really need to release something that is pent up inside of me.

If I had the key… I would.