As close to perfection as I can get

Yes yes yes, this is the FOURTH entry in succession with the rest. at LEAST read the last one if you want to know, but you should really read the other three. or come back when you’re bored out of your mind. heheh heh…

(written on 11/15/2003)

After our nap, and last sex session, he was really hungry. I was there later than I thought and just decided to stay with him.

it was so neat, when we were trying to decide what to do, he was just touching my lower back and smiling at me.

god, i felt so pretty. And I mean, like totally NOT myself. I went into the bathroom at one point and I tried to fix my hair. and i noticed my face was practically GLOWING. And I looked different. maybe it was his mirror…. because I really didn’t think I looked like “me”… i looked prettier, the shape of my face and everything just seemed… nicer. *edit from 11/16/2003: it has washed over into today. People kept telling me I looked “refreshed” and “bright” and that I had a “glow”…. that’s so odd… isn’t it?

*sigh*

We got into his car.. and it’s hilarious, he drives JUST LIKE ME. he talks to the other cars like they can hear him. i loved that. we had to get gas, and when he went in to pay i couldn’t BELIEVE i was with such an amazingly handsome guy. I mean, his pictures are pretty damn hot, but he’s sooo much hotter in person.

and when he smiles.

that does it. I melt into a puddle and swoon.

oh i forgot to mention he has tattoos. sooo sexy. two on his lower arms and two on his legs. they are so yummalicious.

after he got gas we went to burger king.

he’s so cute, cuz he thought they had gotten his order wrong and he was all fussing. it was adorable.

we went back to the apt and ate and watched this movie. it was something about military prisoners and some castle… and yeah.

and after we ate we were cuddling again.

and he held my hand and would squeeze it now and again. I played with his happy trail hair. i love that stuff. heh. i’m weird, ok!!!!

it was everything i had been craving.

I just sat there thinking “is this really happening? Am I really here with someone THIS awesome who WANTS me here? wow… this is perfection. I’m going to remember EVERY SECOND of this!!!”

It was just beyond words.

but it was getting late and when it got to be 6:00 I knew I had to go.

i seriously didn’t want to.

but he wanted to get to some homework he had and i really needed to get home to save my mother from my kids (which is a whole fiasco in itself! yeah, it’ll get it’s own entry too!)….

but eventually we got up and he walked me to my car.

and we hugged and kissed and he said i should call him and stuff.

and he was happy i came out.

and it was just

perfect.

well, almost perfect.

as close to perfection as i’m gonna get for now.

and i know i’m gonna have all sorts of issues (oh look, another topic for an entry!!!!)

but for now, i’m just sorta dazed and happy.

what a great time i had.

it was so worth the drive.

i’d drive for days to get that experience.

i think, besides those amazing orgasms, the way he wanted to be near me and held me was the best part. I’ve missed that so much.

And there he was fulfilling EVERYTHING I HAD BEEN DREAMING OF.

I know it’s probably some cruel twist of fate. But, I really can’t care because it was just so good. And if I never see him again, I think I’ll always remember this as one of the best days of my life.