Commas and Ampersands
Fall has always been my favorite time of year. The other seasons have their own neat attributes, true. Watching the snow fall, dusting the sidewalks and fields. Seeing new flowers bloom that barely made themselves noticed the day before. Lazy summer days laying on a picnic blanket under the shade of an old tree watching the clouds stream by. But nothing has ever competed with fall in my mind, ever. Not with the excitement of Halloween and corn mazes and knitting sweaters or the cozy, homey feel of pumpkin pies, caramel apples and hot, spiced cider.
Except now. Because now fall has something none of the other seasons ever will. A date that, for now at least, I would like to forget but know that I will never be able to. And the cooling temperatures and thunderstorms and changing leaves and brisk breeze don’t inspire the same feelings of fondness for the season as they once did. All they seem to be doing now is serving as a reminder that there’s a certain date and certain holidays approaching that I won’t be able to avoid, no matter what.
There’s only one thing I want more than to be able to freeze time right now so that forever and ever it’s always the middle of August.
And I can’t have that either.
But the season, much like her passing, signals the start of tougher times and harsher weather. She’d want you to remember that after winter comes spring and after death there is still life. All we can do is cuddle up under blankets of love and friendship and wait for the cold winter to pass. I love you.
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Autumn is my favourite season too – I’m sorry that things are tainting that for you now. But eventually, perhaps, it won’t be so bad?
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I love Autumn, and I’m sorry that you’re dreading it now instead of looking toward it with happy anticipation. You don’t really want to freeze time in August though, else you run the risk of becoming the Cape Spear lighthouse. Welcome to Misty, where it is always summer, and it is always 1839. Shall we talk about merchants?
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I had something profound(ish) to say, and then I read Julia’s note, and snorted diet coke up my nose. I love autumn and sweater weather. Also, is there something that I missed, or are you being vague on purpose? :/
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I would hate to think that anything should taint this time of year for you for long. : (
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I love fall, but I’m not too happy that the year is almost over. I dunno, I hate looking back on the year and thinking “so what?”
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Kyle sums it up perfectly. Autumn has always been my favorite season, too. Last year I had a pretty crappy one – and this year isn’t looking all that much better at the moment. But, I love it still, and despite everything, I think I’ll always have a yearning in my heart for fall.
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It’s not fun to look forward to an inevitable period that you believe will bring you pain. All I can say is that, eventually, that pain does wane a bit, and takes its proper place in the sphere of life. But that doesn’t make going through it any easier. I know. My sympathies for having to face that now. *hugs*
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New reader, so not sure what it is referring to. But *hugs* anyway 🙂
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This is beautifully written Lang, really. Your mind is in that place now, but maybe not for ever. Autumn is my season of choice as well.
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It’s difficult, isn’t it? Having to mark anniversaries of your most hated days. *hugs*~jo
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Fall is one of the best times of year – but as fall lessens into winter, as will the sad feelings you have.
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