Okay then

Although I will never stop loving you, dear, I really need to look for someone who will return my feelings and allow me to explore the wonders of the kind of intimacy I desire and am capable of. So I will be open to other women, as friends, lovers; wherever these desires of mine might lead.

It is no fun realizing that you are not interested in my attempts to get closer to you; but it is out of my control. My needs and desires, though, are real; and it is time for me to refocus my attention in the hopes of achieving satisfaction with someone.

Wow.

hope things worh out for you ryn//.thankyou.

Sometimes letting go is the best gift you can give…You won’t be able to turn off your feelings for her immediately, but yes, do look for that kind of love in other women..Keep your eyes and options open. As I said before, it will happen! Love and comforting hugs,

**work i hate when i go back to a diary and see that i left a note with a typo and didn’t correct it earlier. such an idiot i am. anyway. no problem responding to your note. i’m pretty much caught up with answering notes and started to randomly leave people notes in which i have emotional breakdowns. eh, that’s life.

my writings are nothing but broken records. it’s all the same and there are oh so many more people out there willing to put it in more inspiring, poetic words than i ever could.

Are you sure he doesn’t just not KNOW how you feel?

thank you though i really don’t deserve it. but it does help my self-esteem abit, lol.

RYN: I can see the problem, then. That’s got to be tough. *hug*

I am assuming acknowledgement is the same in the lesbian lifestyle as the heterosexual so I’ve been there. It ain’t easy but deep down we know the real deal, where things truly stand long before we admit it. I know your struggle. You are in my prayers.

I am assuming acknowledgement is the same in your lifestyle as mine so I feel your pain. It’s funny how hindsight is so 20/20 but if we reflect we realize we knew the deal much longer than we admit. I know your pain. You are in my prayers.