RELIVING A NIGHTMARE

 I woke up all upset. I was reliving a nightmare or so it was for me.  I was dreaming about my parents. My mother had Alzheimers and was going steadily downhill. I just couldn’t cope with it. Finally I had to. I asked my father if he needed help and he said yes. I started making phone calls to hire someone. I WOKE UP!!!!! Maybe for some people this would not be considered a nightmare but watching my once very strong and determined mother lose it was more than I could take. She died about seven years ago. I still regret that I couldn’t handle it better. When she started forgetting I just became "crazy." I did look after her by hiring people. Thank GOD I could afford it. I got no help from my brother and sister…………….not financially or otherwise.

I hope every one had a great Christmas with family and friends. Hubby went golfing. I stayed home and cleaned and organized. For most of the day I was ok but I really wished I had my own car. For me it isn’t working out well at all. My hubby once again doesn’t seem to care or understand.  He wants the car four days a week. I know that leaves me three but sometimes I need it on other days. I don’t want to complain when other people don’t have a car, are starving etc but this is my reality. It wasn’t a nice day so I didn’t go sit at the pool. I KNOW!!!!!! Other people are freezing!!!!! Anyhow the day is over and I survived. he says I can have the car on Saturday. I will take full advantage and be gone from dawn to dusk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mail a present to my grandson

return an item at the New Age store

buy a baby present

food shopping

yarn store – I hope to sit there and knit a couple of hours so I get it done

waxing my face

etc etc.

My son arrived home safely. YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!