WHINING AND COMPLAINING-edited

I guess whining and complaining are what I do best. I also decided that I am a miserable, unhappy person and I like it this way. I am use to it. On the other hand I feel very abandoned and neglected by my hubby who has taken up golf with a passion. He is golfing four days a week. True I have my own things to do but for whatever reason I am jealous that he is enjoying the golf so much. Right now he just came back and he is writing his name on the golf balls. He is playing Thursday. True we have no plans but the clubhouse is closed. What will I do? He is leaving car so maybe……………………………………………I can’t think of anything to do besides shopping and we all know I shouldn’t do that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MAYBE I NEED TO ARRANGE A MAH JONGG GAME.

I realize that part of the problem is I don’t want to be responsible for our social life, celebrating our holidays, doing dishes and cleaning etc. etc. I am sure women will understand this. My hubby stopped working so even though he pays the bills that’s all he has to do. Not like me. Since we’re married I’ve been doing everything. When do I get to retire? I DON’T WANT TO BE RESPONSIBLE FOR THE HOLIDAYS, OUR SOCIAL LIFE. CLEANING, COOKING ETC. TONIGHT IS THE FIRST NIGHT OF HANUKAH. I DID NOT BRING IN ANY DECORATIONS. I AM SURE MY HUBBY DOESN’T CARE AND I DON’T ANYMORE. I guess I just have to do the bare minimum and that’s all.

So I am NOT a happy camper and I guess I never am or will be. I don’t care. I will not try to be happy because I’m not and don’t know what will make me happy. Right now I could care less. I am miserable. That’s it and that’s all.