CRANKY DANKY-and more added

Today I was cranky. I am not sure exactly why. Of course there were/are a few things bothering me.

I am discussing our finances with my hubby. I am not backing down. I have convinced my hubby that we must go to a financial advisor. He agrees. He is trying to make an appointment so hopefully we will go sometime next week. Our ideas are very different. I am anxious to hear the advisors suggestions. In the meantime I am listing all our expenses. When I get home I will go through files to list exactly what our expenses are. It should be interesting. I keep telling my husband that we did it his way for fifty years. It’s time for a change.

I worry again about my hubby’s memory, getting old and sick.

This morning I had blood in my stool. It’s not the first time. I spoke to my doctor a few weeks ago. She said not to worry because I had a colonoscopy in the Fall. I took pictures of my stool!!!!! I called the doctor to make an appointment. No one was there so will call again on MOnday. It may be hemorrhoids but I won’t relax till I get a clean bill of health.

We packed to come to the country. I just wasn’t in the mood!!!!!! We drove here. We went out for lunch. We went food shopping. I went to the wool store and she straightened me out.

Tonight we went to a friend’s trailer for supper. We bought rack of lamb. It was delicious.

Tomorrow my DIL is coming here alone. She wants to do shopping,. We will go for lunch and have a chance to talk. I hope I don’t have to hang around with her all day because there is nothing I need.

Hubby is going to play golf.

I am so scared of the future. I realize I am heading towards the end of my life and it depresses me. I know it is something I have to accept but……………………I walk around with a “headache.” I had an xray last year and it is nothing. I guess stress but also arthritis maybe. I have aches and pains all over. I couldn’t sleep so I got up and started to knit. Right away I made a mistake so I hope I can go back to the yarn store tomorrow. I WILL NOT GIVE UP!

I had a good evening. We ate with friends at their trailer. The rack of lamb was delicious. I spiced it up a lot just the way hubby and I like it. We sat and talked. My friend gave me a sweater from her hubby who passed away. It will keep me toasty warm and remind me of him.

We got to the trailer and it looked like noone cleaned it. I will have to leave a note for the cleaning lady. I keep telling hubby we don’t need her. It is a small trailer and I can easily keep it up. The repairman was here. He stuffed up some large holes so maybe we won’t get mice anymore and/or next year. Hubby and I discussed selling the trailer. He doesn’t think we would save any money. I think we will. GAS AND FOOD HERE. CLEANING LADY. ELECTRICITY WHICH IS EXPENSIVE. REPAIRS ETC.
Anyhow we won’t decide until we speak to the financial advisor. I am not worried about staying in the city. I know I can keep busy but I don’t know about him. He is playing golf tomorrow. I am sure he can find someone to play golf with in the city.

Time for bed. AGAIN!