DEAR HUBBY(more whining and complaining)

I am very frustrated with my hubby. I guess none of you will ever understand because you aren’t living with my hubby. Because he made a lot of money in his business he has money in different accounts, under different companies etc. He says he has to pay a lot in taxes. Is that my fault? You wouldn’t believe how much if I told you. So it’s not easy to get a handle on our finances. I beg him to go to someone who can explain things to me. At least I would get another opinion of how we stand financially. I don’t have all the information so I can’t go alone.
 I haven’t a clue what he’s thinking. He does not TALK. I am so frustrated. 
The party is just another in a long line of disagreements. He doesn’t say anything except he doesn’t want to spend the money. What is he saving it for? Why can’t I accept what he says? Why does he put a damper on everything? He wanted to go on a cruise so we’re going. He wants a balcony which is more expensive so we’re getting one! Any time I suggest something he cries about money. I really don’t know where to turn. I wonder if I should discuss everything with his sister. I once told her that he wasn’t as free with his money as she thought.
At supper I asked him how much he would be comfortable spending for the party. He never said a word!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just wish I was brave enough to have it out with him once and for all. I did tell him awhile ago that I didn’t want to spend the rest of my life arguing about money. NO RESPONSE.
TELL ME WHAT I SHOULD DO. I NEED SUPPORT! I NEED TO DECIDE ONCE AND FOR ALL WHAT TO DO AND DO IT. Remember the 5000 we got a few months back from my BIL. To me it was found money and we should have done something fun with some of it. We talked about it for awhile and that was it. Am I so wrong to want to have some happy times? To want to spend money we have?
Again this is why I have to charge things and I am in debt! Whenever I talk to him about money he turns green and looks like he is going to faint. I am so tired of it.
If he ever said to me that we could go on any trip I wanted to I would faint. He is definitely NOT a giving man.
We bought a trailer because he wanted one and he was going if I went or not and he does.
We bought the condo in Florida because he wanted it. Of course I benefit too but still it was for him.
We bought this condo. We both wanted it but he should have known better. We can’t afford it. At least he cries all the time. I would be willing to move and sell it. We could probably make money on it. We don’t need such a big place especially if we can’t afford it.
What a selfish man! Maybe he loves me but he doesn’t show it!
So now I will sign off and be miserable. This has been a big part of my life. At times I think we get along very well but…………………
On Saturday he goes golfing. What does he expect me to do all day? The other women go shopping. They might not buy anything much but for me it’s a waste of time. Also there is no way I can go shopping and not buy anything. He also takes his car so I’m more or less stranded unless I go with my friends.
I better stop whining and complaining. I know most of you would tell me to SHIT OR GET OFF THE POT.
LAST BUT NOT least he bought us new IPHONES. I told him awhile ago that I didn’t need one because I don’t really use my phone or care about getting a new one so just get one for him. So he either forgot or decided to get me one anyways. Do I refuse it? It must cost something. My friend once told me I might as well get it etc. because I won’t get the money etc.
So that’s my whole story. Maybe I’ll try to talk to him on the way to the country. We’re closing up this weekend so that’s good news.
I can’t believe there are only a few weeks till we leave for Florida. I WILL BE SO HAPPY TO TRAVEL THERE ALONE. I CAN’T WAIT TO SEE SOME PLAYS. I can’t wait to do what I want!!!!!!!!!!!!!