IT WILL NEVER CHANGE

 My relationship with my hubby concerning money will NEVER change. It has always been hard and I realize it will never get better. I never could understand our finances and I guess at this stage I never will. That is why I charge so much and get into trouble. However I wish I could. It is just too touchy a subject for us. I often asked him to have someone take charge of our finances and if I wanted something I would go to them. Of course he never wanted to.
(He just came into the kitchen to tell me that we should call our friend in Ottawa to tell her that when she comes into town we would go out to eat with her. To me it is super stupid. Of course we would go out to eat. I don’t think we have to call to tell her. I mentioned yesterday that we should go to visit her. I assumed we would ask our friend here and drive there for the day.) We’ve done it a million times over the years.
I have super little patience for him.
He never likes the fruit I buy. I suggested that he buy it from now on. At one point he said ok. So today I suggested he go out to get some fruit. All he’s going to do today is work on his cars. Why can’t he take an hour and go shopping? I called the Fruit store and made an order. I have a class this afternoon. He asked me why I ordered four apples, four bananas etc. because I NEVER eat fruit. His cars are way too important to him. I wonder if he is starting a fight on purpose. What would he say if I asked for a divorce?   Meanwhile he went out all day yesterday to hit balls. What is his rush with his cars? He also wanted to know who was going to pay? Well I won’t be here and I have no cash. I have to go to the bank. Now that I think about it I will try to transfer money to his account. I am SO FED UP!!!!!!!!! I wish I had divorced him years ago. I wonder if it’s too late.
He never has money for anything. I still don’t have my new computer. He said we could go on a big trip for my 70th. So the past few days I mentioned that I would like to go to Israel. He starts complaining that we have no money. OK! I will drop it. I am so frustrated, so angry and super fed up. I wish I had the courage to leave.
Maybe he is too selfish. Yesterday he was suppose to work on his cars. When his friend called to play golf I told him to go. Why didn’t he stay home to work on his cars if it was so important???????????????????????
Better go do some exercise and get ready for my art class.