DEAR FRIEND

I wish I could talk to my friend at least one more time.

Dear friend,

I miss you so much. Even though it’s been more than six years believe it or not I still miss you. I still "talk" to you in my mind and wish you were here. I will never forget you. You were always there for me. You always had my back. I miss you and always will. I need to talk to you and get your advice. I want to ask you what you would think of our friends getting together. I don’t know why it upsets me so much. Anyhow as long as it’s not in my "face" I don’t care. I am a hypocrite because I actually always say that if a spouse has taken care of their mate during their illness then they can do whatever they want after their spouse dies. 
I want to show you the stained glass I have been doing.
I want you to come with me to the bead store and learn Peyote.
I want you to go out to eat with me. We are about the only ones who don’t worry about our weight.
I want you to share the books I am reading.
I want you to share my life with me.
I feel so alone. I don’t enjoy anyone’s else’s company as much as I did yours. I am often so miserable and alone. I am much happier alone so again I am confused.
I wish you could drive home with me. We would shop and eat and have such a good time.
So there’s no use hoping and dreaming.
Hope you are having fun now that you have two of your very close friends with you.
So often I end up sad and crying. Would I be able to share my feelings with you? I don’t know. I am so private. I do try to talk to hubby more but I don’t know if he understands.
It’s my birthday! Can you believe I am 70. I am sure if you were here we would have a grand celebrations.
I LOVE YOU!
I MISS YOU!
THANK YOU FOR ALWAYS BEING THERE.