HAVING A MELTDOWN

 Yesterday I was having a meltdown. I didn’t cry or anything but I was just feeling lousy. I am still worried about hubby and his memory. I wish I could get over it but  can’t. If he forgets anything at all it sends me in a downward spiral. I must get stronger. We all forget!!!!!!!!!!!!
I don’t know why I didn’t tell my hubby how I was feeling. I never admit to anyone that I can’t cope.
Then I am so overwhelmed with all the unpacking. I am also frustrated with our kitchen and all the appliances. The other day we couldn’t start the stove. It’s a ceramic stovetop with "touch" buttons.  I don’t know how else to describe them. Anyhow I was preparing to make scrambled eggs but we just couldn’t get the stove to turn on. Finally hubby figured it out. We received a wonderful new KEURIG coffee pot for father’s Day. I didn’t use it as I just didn’t want to read the instructions. Luckily a friend came yesterday for coffee and she showed me how to work it. I hope I can do it in the morning.
I have  trouble finding things in the kitchen. I need to find place for my cookbooks. I would like to add some shelves but a friend was telling me that I should just redo the kitchen cupboards and make room for them in one but I’m not sure I want to.
The best thing yesterday was reorganizing my paintings in the storage room. I went down with my cleaning lady. We took all the paintings out of the boxes. I threw out a lot of paintings that were not on stretched canvasses. It was just no use. I will never frame them so I just decided to get rid of them. I still have a ton of boxes down there but I will do them slowly. I worry about my bookshelves falling down in the living/dining room. I don’t know when I became such a worry wart! I also don’t like the way the books look. I have them lying on the side as I thought I could get more on each shelf. I am going to call in the interior decorator to tell me what she thinks.
So now I better get back to bed. We have the handyman coming about eight!!!!!!!!!!!! We also have the TV guy coming to connect our TV. We have a new service called FIBE?????? I don’t know how many channels we’ll be getting but I think it will be a lot.
So that’s my complaints for today.
My son still has my computer and is fixing it. Luckily I have this old one to use in the mean time.

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June 21, 2011

instead of worrying about everything all at once… take one thing at a time and unpack it or put it in place. you can only do one thing at a time anyway. just ignore everything else til that one thing is done and then go on to something else. take things in small snippets not overall. that’s too much for anyone to deal with. prayers for your peace of mind. take care,

OK, now I warned you about this! Do not expect too much of yourself and take it EASY! Let your cleaning lady figure out where to put the books and other things like this. Remember, THIS IS RETIREMENT and don’t expect too much of yourself…. do not expect too much…. Owl and I help each other with memory when we can, and realize that sometimes we can’t… don’t expect…. 🙂

June 21, 2011

Try meditating when you feel overwhelmed. Sit quietly and focus on one word : something like : RELAX or PEACE. Worrying accomplishes nothing in these cases. We do all forget and that doesn’t mean something is seriously wrong . You are both stressed out from the move. Go easy with yourself and other people .

June 21, 2011

You keep saying you’re are worried about your husband losing his memeory but it sounds like it is really YOU that needs to be concerned. Take everything one step at a time and write things down if you have to like how to work the coffee pot in easy to understand directions, have your friend tell you and write it down this time. There is no shame in not being able to figure things out, just ask forhelp!

Transition times can be very stressful and frustrating on everyone. Like everyone else has said, try to do one thing at a time. It all can feel so overwhelming, but when it’s broken down into smaller pieces, it can be managed. And, don’t forget to reward yourself once you’ve completed a task!!!! I respond very well to the reward system. It may be something as simple as a half hour break, five minutes of walking outside and taking some deep breath breaths, or going to get an ice cream cone. Whatever it is, you’ve EARNED it by your hard work, so don’t forget to have a little fun in amongst all the hard work.

June 21, 2011

one day at a time Ginger……and try not to fret so much. hugs P

It’ll all be okay.

June 22, 2011

Unpacking can be very overwhelming. You’ll be ok.