UPTIGHT AT NIGHT

 

I went into bed but I started thinking. I couldn’t stand it so got out of bed. It’s better, I think, then just lying in bed and thinking more. When hubby made a strange noise I decided that was it and here I am.
I still don’t understand our finances. I hear from so many couples that they did all they wanted in their new condo. It was to be their last home and they wanted the best. My hubby just says that we have so much to spend on renovations and that’s it. I just don’t know how he arrives at the amount he does. I guess I will ask him tomorrow. Other people just seem to have enough money to do what they want. The floor in the living-dining room is a mess. The repairman will repair it to the best of his ability. It will probably look ok but I would love to change it. I know it would COST a lot. But it’s our last home! Others can do it so I wonder why we can’t. I know I shouldn’t count someone else’s money. Whenever we did work in this house it was always a patch up job. I told him several times I would not do it in our new home. He doesn’t give me a choice though! For example when we had to fix the bathroom upstairs he just put different tiles around the bathtub area instead of changing all the tiles in the bathroom. So we had two different  tiles. We also should have replaced the windows years ago. We talked but never did anything. Of course now when people come look at the house they realize they will have to spend a fortune doing renovations. Of course they could do it slowly but they want to do it NOW which means investing a lot of money. I always feel that I have to do what hubby wants. I don’t want to upset him and I don’t know our actual finances so I give in. I really don’t want to but don’t know what else to do. He makes it sound so logical so I give in. BUT I AM NOT HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!! I think we are going to have to lower our price if we want to sell.
Tomorrow we are going to decide on the colours for the rooms. We also need to buy new fixtures as they took them all. I wonder if we should just take the ones from here. Today we hired a painter. He will start with the ceilings tomorrow. He told us it would take about three weeks. He was disgusted when he saw some of the previous work.
I talked to hubby today about one of us getting sick and the other having to look after the other all alone. I explained that’s why I would LOVE to move into a senior residence even though we are young. In a way I am sure he feels the same. He just isn’t the same since I had my seizure. We are pretty sure it was from my diabetes. My sugar just went too low.
So enough complaining. I better write a gratitude entry!!!!!!!!