AGITATED

So many things on my mind.
I have to go to the bank this morning to see if I can get a small loan to pay off my American Express.
I talked to my friend last night. She has cancer and didn’t sound very good.
I am excited but stressed about moving. I have no idea what the cost will be. I have no idea what we can afford to spend or not. I just have to trust hubby’s judgment. I have been keeping track of our expenses for over a year but I still don’t understand anything so will stop doing it and rely on my hubby as usual.
I have to pick up my grandson and wonder what his mood will be and what we can/will do. I am so ready to give up these BUBBY days. It’s not when they were young and cute and appreciated anything and everything.
I can’t stop thinking about death and being dead forever.
Our holidays are coming and I am stressed out about preparing for them and not caring at all. I guess I should concentrate on the family being together but my daughter is not coming home.
I know there will be a lot of conflict between my hubby and myself as we struggle to decide what to take from here, what to get rid of, what repairs to make in the new place etc.
I SHOULD LOOK FORWARD TO:
Getting my IPHONE today
the drive to Florida
BUT all my other concerns just override these other good things to come. So I will have breakfast and get on with my day.

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September 2, 2010

prayers for your peace of mind. take care,

September 2, 2010

thank you for your Swell wishes L’shanna tovah , Reference FLORIDA HAVE A GR8 TRIP. Don’t be so morbid regarding Death we all eventually face it live each day as though it was your last simply enjoy it! Lucky you! you get to go to the sunshine state while I tredge on in Mud and snow. ( actually I like winter).

September 2, 2010

I think that they need the Bubby days even MORE when you think that they are too old and you think that they don’t even like it. I am being serious. I can’t remember how old your grandsons are, but boys around 2nd grade or so turn kind of weird. It doesn’t mean that they don’t love you, or what you do together, it is just a part of them growing up. They will look back at the time you took with them when they are older with fondness.

I don’t know how you can live with the confusion of not knowing where your finances stand. It’s just a matter of addition and subtraction. I think hubby is deliberately making it complicated. Have a good day.

September 2, 2010

Sorry about your friend, I wish her well. Just be very careful about that loan, make sure you read everything well befire you sign and and find out if the interest rate is variable or fixed, that is VERY important! If it is variable, they can raise it on you and then you are screwed.

September 2, 2010

just take it all one day at a time…thats all that counts really. hugs P

Florida has always been my favorite place. It’s so beautiful there. Hot, but I love it regardless.