BORED, CRANKY, FED UP – OK

I have a cold so maybe that’s why I feel fed up and cranky and bored. It’s my fault that I sat alone all day and became bored. I could have gone to visit friends. I just didn’t feel like it. I thought I would have a nap but couldn’t fall asleep. I told my hubby to buy a bread when he went into town but he forgot. He sure forgets a lot. I don’t know what I’ll do if and when he forgets more and more. On the other hand if I end up with cancer than maybe I’ll go first and then there was no use worrying about my hubby and his memory. I don’t know why I am such a depressing person. I stay away from people as much as possible. Then I get bored! Tonight we are going out for a Chinese buffet. I hate it but everyone else loves it so I have no choice. For two cents I would just stay home but don’t want to start any trouble.
Last night we were invited to friends for coffee. Actually it was at my best friend’s trailer – the one who past away a few years ago. It was sold so probably that was the last time I will be there. I wasn’t thinking about that at all but friends thought I was. I sat quiet as I usually do. They thought I was upset. I just have no patience for chit chat. They talk about saving money with coupons, for going back to a store and getting more money because the price went down etc etc. Did I explain that I have no patience???????
I guess I just worry.
I worry about my belly button and that it might be cancer.
I worry about how I’ll manage if my hubby gets worse.
I have a wedding tomorrow and I wish I didn’t have to go. I am anti-social. I don’t want to get dressed up. I don’t want to go get my hair done so probably I won’t. I just don’t care.
I think I’ll go pack a little so I can leave first thing in the morning. I’ve had enough of this place.
I guess another thing that bothered me this weekend is I have no money to spend. All people do here is go into town. I don’t know what they buy or how much they spend but they love going into town and shop. I don’t like to go unless I have extra money to spend.
Guess I’ll go work on my eggs and maybe pack them up so they’ll be ready for the morning.

Itzmarg

September 6, 2009

RYN: I thought a wedding sounded nice until I read your diary entry. Now, I guess not! Can you just not say “no” to going? I do that all the time. It doesn’t make me very popular but I am not trying to find the popularity crown. Take care. Thank you for writing to me.

Sofia Clare

September 7, 2009

hi! one boy one girl boy is 3 girl is 13 months… which means diapers but whatever!! 🙂

You have your art and your accordian and some of your hobbies which are a lot better than a lot of that stuff. I don’t blame you for getting bored with some people — I sort of like my own company. I watch a lot of TV, though.. and I’m guessing you don’t as you don’t ever mention it. Talk your hubby into getting an HD TV and watch the soaps –they really are hilarious! 😀

ps — there really is a lot of good stuff on TV these days if you get satellite — there is science, history, nature, and cooking and home remodeling shows as well as craft programs — lots of things that you would enjoy! Its a big expenditure at first, but well worth it in the long run.

gray tabby

sorry you are bored. but you have so many hobbies that i would think you wouldn’t be bored. sometimes, i just don’t want to be around people, either. they sometimes get on my nerves. take care,

Mystic Shadow

I hope you shake that cold soon.

offmychest

You know I usually hate going out too but once I do I usually have a good time. Sometimes you have to force yourself to do things but in the end it is good to get out. Then you don’t focus so much on the negative stuff in your head.

Gypsy Spirit

you are entitled to be cranky having a cold…thats miserable. But boredom is something no one can justify. Sounds like you need a good book to read. Better than visiting friends as you could pass on germs. hugs P