December 12, 2008

A LETTER WRITTEN BUT NOT SENT

Dear son,

I can’t help feeling very sad when I think of you. Although you assure me you are ok most of the time I still feel extremely sad when I think about you. Where did I go wrong? Why are you home alone? Why don’t you have a job? a wife? a life? I have no idea what I should or could do? I try to just put you out of my mind. I try to understand that it is your life and up to you to do something to change your life. I can’t do it for you. That doesn’t stop me from being sad. I will call you more often but what can we talk about? I don’t want to ask if you are looking for a job. I don’t want to ask if you joined EHARMONY.

Just know that I care and love you and would LOVE to see you with a life. I wish you had some friends. You can’t depend on your brother.

Maybe I should pray for you but how can I do it when I don’t believe in GOD. Maybe it would comfort me if I prayed.

Anyhow son, I can’t help feeling sad and thinking that something I did made you like you are – shy? inhibited and a man with no ambition. I wish you would reach out and get help. Maybe when I get home I will push you to go for help. I wish I knew what was the right thing. Letting you go on as you are or trying to push you in a different direction.

I LOVE YOU. I CARE ABOUT YOU. I ONLY WANT WHAT’S BEST FOR YOU.

Random noter passing by to say hi 🙂 I hope things get better for your son. I know when I read this, it did make me think about how much my Dad wants me to start doing better… except with me, its always been some type of self harm or addiction. I found him 3 years ago, he’s 64, and only wants me to stop doing all of these things.

TheWoodsprite

December 13, 2008

Do you think your son is unhappy, or is it possible that he is actually happy being the way that he is? I just ask, because our son Joey is quite a bit like your son, I think, from the sounds of things. He does have a job, but he doesn’t really like going places and doing things much, and he almost never dates, which does seem odd for a young man of 21. But I think he’s happy. He seems to be! hugs, Weesprite

How old is your son? If he is in his early to mid-20’s, I think this is how some young men are. I know how you must feel, though… we can’t really instill ambition in our sons. My oldest was very odd about things until he was close to 40… so what can I say? Hang in there!

Kind of sounds like my son, too. Dating isn’t fun in my opinion.