I AM SO HOT

I am at my son’s house babysitting. IT IS SO HOT IN HERE. I TRIED TO GO OUT ON THE BALCONY BUT COULDN’T GET THE SCREEN DOOR TO OPEN. He has an airconditioning unit but it doesn’t do too much good as far as I am concerned. I guess it’s better than nothing.
We returned from Toronto this afternoon. I had just enough time to unpack and grab a quick supper. Then I came here. My grandson was eating supper but when he saw the book of MAZES I brought him that was it. Anyhow he did some mazes and I fed him supper. So different from the way things were at our house. We always sat down to eat as a family. My son still hasn’t unpacked and there are toys all over which I guess is normal when you have kids. I just felt sad that my grandson was eating alone and my son was running out. I guess he had been eating for awhile because the food was cold. The creamed corn was from a can. The fish probably frozen. I know it isn’t serious but just makes me sad. I am so use to the old fashioned family unit!!!!! I know it’s just about a dream now. Families with two parents, kids and a pet is probably just an illusion now.
My body has been aching for weeks. If it’s not my hips it’s my leg or my back etc. I thought I was ok when I left home but as I was walking up the stairs at my son’s house something seemed to happen to my right leg and I am having trouble walking. OY!!! I took two Tylenol and hopes it goes away.
Last night we had supper with hubby’s brother and sister. It was a pleasant evening. My SIL has to have an operation for carpal tunnel syndrome. She also has something but not sure what – maybe cancer again. She already had a kidney removed. Hubby’s whole family has had cancer. My niece was suppose to go for a hysterectomy tomorrow but an emergency came up so they postponed it. It is just a preventitive measure.
Tomorrow I am playing Mah JONGG at my house. I have to get some snacks ready in the morning. My cleaning lady is coming in the morning so she can get the living room and kitchen clean enough for company. She is going to come every Monday. At first I didn’t want to spend the extra money but I also don’t want to clean. I figure that since I am not wasting money I will be able to afford her.
I have been keeping back all the “sharp, ugly remarks ” I want to make to my hubby. I don’t know why I want to say nasty things. For example when we leave the house he tells me to put on the alarm. It’s nothing but I want to tell him I know and he doesn’t have to tell me. It’s stupid things like this. Why am I so impatient?
I get so upset because he wants to leave early in the morning when we go on a trip and I figure what’s the rush?????? As much as I can I don’t say anything. Maybe if I pretend I am patient I will be. There is a saying, ACT AS IF!
Anyhow will try to read some of your entries. Take care.