A MISERABLE DAY-ok

I am going to bitch and whine and complain and curse so you may not want to read this entry.

I had the most miserable day ever. It started off by hubby being angry once again that I had no money, that I had spent the money he had put on my Visa and the pension check I received. He gave me some money for the trip home and I asked him to put more money on my Visa and I would give him my next pension check when I get home. Anyhow I came to terms with driving home on a strict budget. I felt it would be ok. I didn’t have to shop on the way home. After all I had spent the money I should have kept so I left the condo in a pretty good mood.
So what happened to make my day miserable???????????????????

While driving I heard a terrible loud noise. I had to pull off the road! I had a flat!!!! You should have seen the tire. I am very very lucky nothing happened. The tire was split way open. So here it is HOT like hell and I am on the side of the road. I called my hubby who was ahead of me. He told me to call 911.  So I did! She gave me another number to call. Finally I reached a woman who said she would send a tow truck to change my tire. She told me that she needed to know exactly where I was. I needed to tell her the exact mile stop I was at. I saw it far ahead. She said I needed to drive slowly  the side so I could tell her what the mileage post said. I told her I could ruin the rim of the tire. She didn’t care!!!!!!! She told me to call back after I knew the mile post. I hung up in tears. I knew I shouldn’t drive on a very bad bad flat. I decided I better walk. So I climbed out in the sun and heat and humidity and walked about half a mile. Then I walked back. I tried to call the number but there was no answer. I turned off the engine. I didn’t want to waste gas as money is TIGHT!!! So I sat there very miserable and mad and depressed. I finally reached the woman and she said she would send a tow truck. I sat and sat and waited. I read my book. Then I had to pee. What should I do???? I decided there was no way I could wait until I reached Daytona which was a half an hour away. BUT I HAD TO WAIT FOR THE TOW TRUCK. So yours truly went on the side of the road and peed on the grass. Too bad if anyone saw.
Finally the tow truck arrived. Thankfully he was a very pleasant man. He changed my tired BUT BUT I had to empty the trunk so he could get to the spare tire. OH SHIT!!!!! I was crying again. So frustrated!!!!!!! I couldn’t believe I had to unpack my trunk. I was HOT and TIRED and frustrated. Remember we had just spent 1000 to check out the car tires included. I will NEVER NEVER again check my car before I go anywhere. What’s the use? Something always happens. So I emptied the car and he changed the tire and I put everything back. I paid him 70 out of my very limited funds and we both drove off.
I drove to Daytona and went to SEARS because I figured I could use my SEARS card. I couldn’t!  I would have to walk over to the SEARS store to get a gift card because their machines would not accept my Canadian card. So I told them to go ahead with two new back tires and I walked to SEARS. I got a gift card for 400. Then I walked back and waited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Not bad BUT then I had to unpack the trunk again so they could put the spare back. OY!!!!!! Actually it wasn’t so bad.
Sad part no one stopped on the highway to see if I needed help and no one offered to help me at the repair shop…..So I unpacked the trunk once again and was grateful that everything fit.
I paid about 340 and then drove off. I was so upset and exhausted and fed up I didn’t drive far. I am in St. Augustine’s for the night.
Although I often write gratitude entries and I know I "should" be grateful the truth is deep in my heart I am not grateful and NOT happy.
I am not grateful that I go to Florida. I want to stay in one place. OK? I might not enjoy the winter………I am NOT grateful that we go to our trailer in the summer. I think it’s because I haven’t chosen this lifestyle. This is my hubby’s dreams. I do benefit and not sure what I would do different.
I keep thinking I would like to work but I never try to get a job because I have to be in Florida and away on weekends which usually start Thursdays.
I wish I knew what I should do.
I wish I could just be grateful with my life but I’m not.
I have my hobbies to keep me busy but I have way to many paintings, three d art pictures and soon will have too many eggs and plates. What can I do with all of it?
I need something meaningful to do.
I don’t really want to volunteer.
I would like to make money but don’t know how. I would like to find something to sell online. Then it wouldn’t matter where I am. I would like the extra money.
My hubby keeps repeating that the weather in Florida is wonderful. I feel like screaming. To me there are more important things than the weather.
I can’t blame him. If I knew what I wanted then I could go after it. I could quit complaining about my life. I am so ungrateful and miserable.
I just watched ALICE on TV. I haven’t seen the program in years. I love the old shows. I ordered a large pizza from Papa John’s. I will probably throw most of it out. MAMA’S FAMILY IS COMING ON. The old programs brighten my mood.
So I guess that’s about it. Sorry for the venting. NOT!!!!!!!!!