THIS MORNING – ok

I woke up this morning
With a feeling of dread
All sorts of ideas
In my head.
Thinking of death
Not ready yet
Too much to do
Too much to see.
Better get up
And make a pee.
Talking to my sons
Late last night
Gave me nightmares
And wondering
Where I went wrong.
Both have no ambition
So unmotivated and boring
Do they take after their mother
So long and unenduring?
Son number one is
Afraid of Life
He will never take a wife.
The business must close
He’s hanging on until the end
I hope he will be able to mend.
He has no confidence
No ambition too
How will he live his life
Without these two
Alone in a house
Built for a family
Alone and lonely
Most of the time
What is stopping him
From moving along
Can it be
He’s not very strong
I wonder where
I went wrong.
Son number two
Suggested a vacation
Will he go
I doubt that he will.
It’s sad for me
To see him fail
Too scared to try
Too scared to move forward
I am so worried
What will become of him?