September 22, 2006

GETTING OLDER

WE’RE GETTING OLDER
SO MUCH
TO ENDURE
HOW WILL I SURVIVE
IF MY HUBBY
IS NOT ALIVE?

I know I have often complained and whined and blamed my hubby for all my problems. BUT LATELY I start wondering how I would manage if left alone. I know I am a loner BUT he is always around!!!!!
I worry about us getting older and more dependent. I worry about one of us having to look after the other. If I have to look after him of course I will but how would I cope? As he goes through radiation will I be able to keep my spirits up? Will he? Will I stay strong because of my children and having to put on a "show?"
I always think I should work on staying in touch with friends but I don’t. If I am left alone how will I manage? Maybe then I would stay in touch because I would need them. Maybe I would move into a condo where there are lots of other widows etc. Maybe I would travel alone….
Maybe my sister would travel with me. BUT she is seventy five.
I am still planning on going to NY next week. I don’t think hubby’s treatments will start before that so I want to go while I can. I cancelled the reservations that I already made because there was no room for my cousin. Now we are three so will make new reservations at another hotel
We stayed home all day. It was quiet and a little boring. My cousin came to visit so that was fun. I have known her since she moved here from Winnipeg.
I rearranged my scrapbook room. I am going through all my old magazines, tearing out what I want and throwing out the rest. I already have extra room for other stuff. I have put up a peg board and really think it will be handy. Hubby doesn’t want to hang it up until I am sure!
We didn’t go to the synagogue for services this morning but may go tomorrow if my son comes with my grandson. Otherwise I could care less. I have given up on religion!!!!!
Going to work in my newly arranged scrapbook room. So many pictures. So little time.

“The end of all things is near; therefore, be clear-minded and self controlled so that you can pray.”–1 Peter 4:7

offmychest

September 23, 2006

You do whatever you have to do Ginger, you and your hubby will get through all this somehow.

LightButHearty

I can understand your worries just now about your husband.

TheWoodsprite

September 24, 2006

You will be as strong as you are capeable of being, and that will be good enough. You’re no slouch! The fact that you have so many hobbies and interests will help you a great deal, if you are ever alone. Some people never develope hobbies and interests, and they end up not having a clue as to what to do with their lives, if they are alone. You will not have that problem. hugs, Weesprite

I figure that Owl will live longer than I will, but I certainly would miss all he does for me if it was the other way around (he would miss me too)! Keep a positive outlook on his radiation – my brother said it was absolutely nothing – no problem at all except having to go everyday for however many weeks it was (no side effects). Maybe he will start to appreciate you more -hey anything’s possible!

I don’t know what PUAH means … but MUAH is a kiss … or so someone passedon to me once and I have been using it ever since :0) Nice to meet you

mrs toot

we are capable of more than we think we are…I think often how I would do if J went before me, I too would miss all he does for me, but he insist he will go first, and I really think it would be a good thing for him as he is such a loner in many ways…..huggs

Pola