May 31, 2004

SHITTY MOOD-read

GRATITUDE

Thsi afternoon I am going for a facial and pedicure and a waxing.

I don’t know if I mentioned here that my married son bought a senior residence which his mother-in-law is running. I had an idea which I have to discuss with him. He is planning to add an extension. I will suggest that he make some suites that hubby and I can move into when we get older. Maybe if he agrees then when I get older if I am alone I won’t really be alone. Of course there are many places I can move into which are specially for seniors.

I get depressed listening to the news. OK! I know. Just don’t listen and for the most part that’s what I do.

I get depressed listening to people talk about who is sick and dying – young too!

I went to my art studio yesterday but seemed to just be going through the motions. I don’t seem to have any inspiration anymore. I don’t think I should rent the place for June. I will speak to the woman I rent it from. I would like to just pay her when I decide to go.

I went to CURVES yesterday. I think I lost about two pounds. I am trying NOT to eat after supper. My sugar has been high in the mornings. It seems to be working. My daughter is planning to join CURVES. It will be fun to go together if it works out. She is still on the South beach diet.

Yesterday I took my car in to be serviced. I have to pick it up this morning. I rented a van. Yesterday after CURVES I backed into another car. Luckily I had taken out insurance on the rented car. I am debating whether or not I should tell them or wait to see if they notice the dent in the rear fender. I guess this didn’t help my mood.

Last but not least I went to give my mother lunch yesterday because the woman who goes in the morning said she couldn’t go. Anyhow the other caregiver in the room who is very friendly and maybe interfering had called my afternoon caregiver and told her to come!!!!!!!!!!!!! She told her not to leave my mother alone!!!!! So I am there ready to give my mother lunch and in walks my caregiver. Anyhow I took it with a grain of salt, said it was ok and left. She is an excellent Russian woman. So it will cost me another 25 for the week! I’ll buy one less book.

I am working on my quilt and it is coming out ok. I am doing the Drunkard’s path block.

So I better decide if I am going back to bed or going to start my day very early.

Dear Ginger, sounds like you are dealing with some pretty tough stuff right now,I hope that you can find the light at the end of the tunnel…especailly since there really doesnt seem to be much chance for that these days,if you need a slight diversion take a peek at my diary ….sillygirl………hope it gets better!!1

WebWoman

June 1, 2004

Thanks for the note. Sounds like you have a lot on your plate.

Patrisha

Sounds as if you have as lot on your plate right now.

country pharm girl

Dear Ginger, I hope things get better for you. I’m not sure if you feel like reading, but a REALLY good book is Relationship Rescue by Dr. Phil McGraw. It will help you to sort things out. It will also help you communicate your needs with your spouse. It isn’t too late!

akt42002

the residence is a good idea—i also plan to do this later in life. meanwhile you are having a bit of clinical depression—which you should get over by positive,affirmative thinking or else take some mild anti-depressant–it will change your views. all the best.

dreamer felice

Facials and pedicures always pick up my mood. Hope your day went better …

I was wondering if you get the ad thing when you go into your diary. Also do you get the entry by person thing with the alphabet in your notes and how about the thing where you can choose who can read an entry set as fav only

Mama Blue

Did you know the “Drunkard’s Path” pattern was used as a signal for escaping slaves? Slaves would hang a Drunkard’s Path quilt out on the fence as a signal to escapees to follow a crooked course rather than a straight line. You have an art studio and you’re thinking about giving it up? Don’t! RYN: It won’t mean extra income (we’ll break even) in actual dollars, but will offset business taxes.

I do hope you are feeling better today than yesterday. Have you given thought to following through on the Marriage Guidance counselling? An impartial, trained outsider can often help you to cope better with the situation you are in. You appear to have come quite a long way already; maybe this is the next step? Best wishes.

I hope that you are feeling better tomorrow and that the rental car company doesn’t notice the dent.

Gypsy Spirit

Dieting and depression are not a good combination…..so although you are feeling fitter and losing weight, it isn’t helping how you feel emotionally about all this stuff. I suggest you seriously consider talking to a professional…..you obviously are not happy at all, yet you deserve to be happy. You are the only one who can really help yourself on this, make a decision and go with it. hugs

Gypsy Song

June 2, 2004

Dear Friend, my heart goes out to you. You deserve to be happy and your husband needs to do his part to make it so. If he doesn’t cooperate by seeing a counselor with you , go by yourself. You really are in need of help. Don’t hasten to a final or permanent decision without careful guidance. My deepest concern is with you.

Zenith

Thanks for the Birthday wishes.. I think I have a similar marital situation to you. I should have left long ago but I keep chosing security over happiness.. Hopefully soon I will find the courage to do otherwise. Life is just too short to spend it with someone you dont want to be with, no matter what the cost.