MONEY MONEY HONEY-ok

Well it happened again! Hubby was very aggravated because I spent money. I don’t blame him. I guess I do spend too much but I have NO control. Oh I don’t buy everything I want but I buy alot. I don’t know what is going to happen. He was so upset tonight and so was I. I wonder if I should go give back the needlepoint I bought. It would be so embarrassing! I wonder if I should ask him if I could make up by not going to Israel! I know that would save a lot of money but I love going!!!!!!!!!

He is planning to retire. That brings up another problem because I wish he wouldn’t. I don’t feel old enough. He is 9 years older than me. I don’t want to spend months in FLORIDA!!!!!!! OK> I am a selfish miserable bitch. Maybe but at this stage of my life I want to do what I want not always what he wants. I really don’t know what the answer is.

He likes Florida. I can take it or leave it. For what it costs I would much rather go on a trip to Europe etc. I would rather stay home. So what if it is cold. It won’t kill me.

I know I am ungrateful! So many people would love to come to Florida in the winter. BUT I love my home, love my life there so what do I need this for. We could save plenty of money staying home. Maybe next year he can come alone.

I don’t want to be here and leave my daughter at home. I want to be at home. I miss it so much. Today I started to pack!

I wish I could change my attitude. I have tried and I think for most of the time we were here I was pretty good but now I am so miserable, sad and crying.

Anyhow only over a week to go so I won’t do the rest of the shopping that I planned to do…………….All I want to do is curl up in bed and stay there!