He’s gone…

I lost my best friend Sunday night. I’m too exhausted right now to go into details; but Doodle woke me up and i found Jim not moving…not breathing…no matter how much i shook him and yelled at him. My whole family’s in town right now. My sister and her family are here. Kim and Jimmie and Anthony have pulled together enough to get us this far. Tomorrow morning is the memorial service. I’m a widow. How absolutley bizarre.

J’s not in pain any more…and i’m thankful for that. I’m thankful that even tho i used up every bit of leave i had when he wasn’t feeling well, that i was with him. And right now, i’m thankful for this houseful of people and then some that love me and loved J so much.

I miss him already. It’s all so surreal.

I’ll be back here when i can. I think i’m going to be needing a LOT of OD therapy.

Don’t forget to hug someone you love, k?

So sorry about your loss…youre right hes no longer suffering.

Random noter: I am really sorry about your loss. I know you’ll have heard that a lot. I hope you’re okay

I am truely sorry for your loss. You will be in my prayers.

i stumbled upon this entry in a blur, and my heart aches for you. you sound like a strong woman who loved a good man very much. god is with you and your husband is in a beautiful place. thank you for reminding me to cherish those i love with every moment i have. god bless.

i can hardly type for my tears. every ounce of my being is with you right now. i only wish i lived closer. words are inadequate to express the sorrow i’m feeling and i am so very sorry sweet. i keep thinking how lucky you were to have found each other again and that you were able to share these last months together. please try to take comfort from knowing that j knew he was loved and that his blessed was with him when he needed her most. *hug* i will write more soon. i am still in shock and trying to accept what’s happened. it’s very frustrating to not be able to do something for you, even if it’s to make a cup of tea and sit up all night talking. please know i’m here for you. i left my numbers for you. *HUG* patti

mia

December 20, 2006

i want to be here for you. lean on your friends. i am praying for you, for j and your family.

woman in the moon

I’m so sorry. I know you’re been so good for and to him. Please be comforted by that. And come back often to us.

MegaLady

I’m in shock; I didn’t realize his health situation had become so dire. I’m sorry to hear this, dear (((Blessed))). Please don’t forget to take care of yourself during this difficult time.

Flyte

I am so sorry. I am praying for you.

Bella Jess

Oh B–My thoughts and prayers are with you right now. I’m so sorry to hear this, he was such a good man but I’m thankful, like you, that he is no longer in any pain. We’re here for you, whenever you are here. Your OD family loves and hugs you right now, sugah. <3 BJ

~seafarer

oh dear…. my heart goes out to you…. I’m so sorry….. please know I care…..love and hugs………

~Saisei~

oh my gosh, dearest… I’ve been reading you for years and years, it seems….I’ve read you through hard times, moves, divorce, remarriage….I’m so sorry for your loss. HUGSHUGSHUGS

Soph

THinking of you today with every other thought. Remember what I said if the time comes that you need me, I’ll be there. Love to you all! Soph

I missed this entry when you wrote it, so my good thoughts to you are a bit late, but nonetheless heartfelt. I am so sorry, and will be thinking of you.

Mama Blue

December 29, 2006

Oh, Blessed. I’m so sorry. I AM glad that you two were able to work things out and find the love again. Remember that. You HAD that. Not everyone gets that in life, so it is a memory to cherish. **HUGS**