A mishmash

Wish i knew where to start…i’ve been gone tooooo long!!!!!

My nephew, Sam, who’s a sweet, laid back, dead pan commedian, drove away in my beautiful 93 1/2 Camaro the other day.  I was sooooo happy that he ended up with it– even if i lost around $1500 of what i could’ve sold it for.  He has a great appreciation for it– he’s 17 and it’s his first car!  I’ve had it since it was six months old…so seeing Sam drive off in it made it lots easier!!

And, he’s kinda shy but has a prom date with a cute girl he’s had his eye on for awhile.  The prom’s the 19th– all home schoolers, which is cool, and i’m sure Sam will be holding his head a little higher in his new sports car!!  I’m sooo excited for him!!  And i’m guessing he’s prob’ly happy i didn’t have those bright pink flames put down the sides of the car…

Jimmie’s supposed to be moved out of the house 1 June, so J and i have been furniture hunting– mainly, for the living room, although eventually we’ll need a dining room table (to pile stuff on, ya know!).  We both fell in love with a charchol couch recliner.  It doesn’t have the massager and heat that i’d like, but it’s wayyyyy comfy.  J’s going by after work today to get it.  Then, later, we’ll work on getting a recliner that i can have massage and heat in and spend my last half hour or so before bedtime relaxing there…ahhhhhhhh!!!!!!

There’s soooo much to do— the packing and painting here and the house and getting the carpet cleaned both places.  Ant’s gonna move in here where he’ll have some peace and quiet, since his roommates gf’s moved in and there’s always something going on in that tiny apartment he’s in.  And i’ll feel sooooo much better just knowing that he’s here, the place isn’t sitting empty where we’d have to check on it all the time.

I had a wake up call this morning– i don’t usually answer the phone when i’m sleeping– but it was Chant, in his sweet voice, telling me happy mothers day– i love you!  Awwwwwww!!!!  He’s going to be eight tomorrow…so hard to believe!!

And Jimmie called, left a mumbling message about his plans for the day and hopes he gets to see me.  Yeah…whatever….

I just haven’t felt like "me" lately, if that makes any sense.  I can cry at the drop of a hat and that’s sooooooo NOT me!!  Poor J’s trying so hard to cheer me up– i had roses waiting for me when i came home Wed.  That made me cry!  And then when i saw how he’d arranged them, it made me laugh–the long fronds that normally stand up in the back, he had arranged to stick out the sides!  lol

Work is the heaviest thing on my mind, tho.  I have such a tough time getting motivated to go.  J tells me to quit–we’ll have food on the table and the bills will still be paid– and i know that’s true.  I get treated badly at work because i haven’t been trained since i’ve been back (over a year) and everyone seems to think that i should remember everything from the three years i was gone, even tho it’s all changed.  LeeLee’s the only good part about the job.  The rest of it, i hate.  But i just keep thinking that if i walk out, i’ll just get into something else i hate more.

Plus, with J being sick, we want time together.  Since it’s staying lighter out longer now, he’s getting home about the time i should be going to bed.  I never, ever get enough sleep– or enough time to spend with him.

I wanna go see my folks– but don’t have the leave to do it with– and don’t think i ever will.  Plus, i think i’m beginning the wonderful years of menopause which isn’t helping the whole situation.

J’s been fantastic to me, tho.  I couldn’t ask for more from him.  He even cooks!!!!!  I thank God for him everyday– he’s soooo much more a man than i remember!!

Think i’ll go start some dinner in the crock pot.  And call my mamma.

And God bless all you mother’s out there everywhere– that includes anyone who’s helped raise a child, whether they gave birth to them or not!!

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May 14, 2006

Yes, happy mother’s day to you too, for all the children you love and care for. I’m glad you and J are happy. Glad when things work out. Sorry about the job – jobs always have some drawbacks – hard to know about leaving one for another. Hope you and your mom had a nice call. And glad you stopped in here to see us all.

May 15, 2006

You are under alot of stress right now. No wonder you cry at the drop of a hat! It isnt easy moving and making changes. I am glad that J is helping you through this with kindness and roses.

mia
June 4, 2006

happy belated birthday!! i’m so sorry i missed it. happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday dear blessed…happy birthday to youuuuuuu! make a wish. :^)