Emptying my thoughts…

Well, i’ve been given my mother’s day present…quite unexpectedly.

J called this morning.  He’d just talked to Kim and although she hasn’t mentioned anything about our phone conversation to him, she told him to ask me to go out on the boat with j and her family today.  Since i’d just gotten up and have already told Jimmie i’d be here at 1:00 today, it wasn’t feasable.  But…i think it’s a step…

Sooooo, i get to spend time with Jimmie today.  And i’m not real pleased with him.  His warped mind doesn’t process things in a normal way.  He told Dawn, who’s been nothing but good to me, that i hated her and Ant–that i was just using them to see the kids.  And that i was his little spy.  Dawn and i had a lonnnng conversation the other night…she’d been told that i wanted nothing to do with her.  We have things straightened out, but i refuse to even make a comment on anyone else in “the family” to him.

I keep trying to encourage him to get professional help for his issues and his anger.  And i’ll continue to do that.  And say my prayers.  Unfortunately, he got the “sad, strange little man” gene from his father…

J and i set up a deal that i’m going to clean his house for him– when he’s not home.  And it’s really a sweet deal for me, since half of what he’s paying me is going to pay off what he loaned me to move here and the other half he’s giving me cash, because he “knows i need the money”.

So, yesterday was the first time.  It was pretty bizarre, being back in “my” old house again.  But there wasn’t time to think about that much for all the work that needed to be done.  I didn’t even scratch the surface.  Although i did get the bathroom cleaned, that prob’ly hadn’t seen a cleaning in a year or so…ICK!!!!

I started painting in the LR last night.  I have a coat of blue on one wall (real similar to the color on my diary, on the left here!) and plan to sponge a few puffy clouds at the top.  I’m not sure how that’ll work…or if that’ll work, since i’m artistically challenged.  But i’m gonna give it a try!  I like the color– it’s cheery, like the bright yellow in the kitchen.

I’m incredibly more dangerous with a paintbrush these days, since i have a serious addiction to The Learning Channel and all of the decorating shows.  I’m serious– i think i’m gonna need some intervention for this!!

It’s Mamma’s day and i miss my mamma.  But Soph was sweet enough to deliver some hanging flowers to her from us.  I discovered in the past couple years that i lived close, that that’s what Mamma likes– and she won’t spend the money on it for herself!!  Silly Mamma!!  I hope she has a GREAT day tho…’cause she’s a GREAT mamma!!!

My shed’s supposed to be delivered tomorrow…YAY!!!!!!!  But, Lowe’s won’t put it together because it’s vinyl (i don’t know…don’t even ask…) so Ant said he’d help me.  I’m WAYYYYYY excited about getting everything out of my front bedroom and into a shed where it belongs!!  I keep thinking of things i haven’t even seen since i’ve been here and i know they have to be here somewhere!!  Oh, the unorganization makes me crazy!!

Guess i’d better get in the shower and get the day started– i have many, many things to do!!

Hope ya’ll have a GREAT mother’s day, to all you mom’s out there!!

Blessed be!!!