Processed and ready

Hi Strangers! 

As Pink stated in my last entry, I have processed and am all ready to go on my next adventure. 

I know most people on here think I am crazy for doing this, but I am feeling 100% sure that everything is going to be okay.  For those of you who are religious, you will understand when I say I was worried about my safety if I was to go for this job, but after praying about it for a couple months, and worrying about it, one day I just got a calm feeling, and have not been “scared” since.  That is not to say that I am not going to be “on my toes”, and very vigilant.  Not at all.  I am going to be very observant of my surroundings, and very alert.  I have found out that I will not be leaving the base I will be staying on, which was a huge relief to me, and I am sure you will all appreciate that fact too.  I will be working on computers, but not certain what my job will entail exactly, until I get there.  The main thing I want to explain is that I will not be out in the general public.  I will be living on a guarded base for the entire time I am there.  I think that should ease your minds a little bit.

I have also thought about creating a new diary to write about my life over there.  I want to create a new diary only because I want to be able to share it with some people who don’t know that I am gay, and want to be able to share that diary with them, too.  So, once I decide, and get over there, I will come up with a new diary, and put a link in this diary, or, since I don’t know how to put in a link, I will put in the diarist name of “someone I think you should all read”.  Sound good? 

I am going to try my best to be vigilant about writing in that diary at least once a week.  The reason I say once a week, is because I will only have one day off per week, and the days I work will be long days.  They are saying I will be working an average of 14 to 16 hours a day, 6 days a week.  This isn’t such a bad thing, though, because it will definitely help to pass the year!  🙂

As I have said before, my younger brother has been there.  He is home now.  He got home to his family the Friday night before I started my processing.  I called him the following morning to get his “take” on the idea.  His exact words were, “If I didn’t have (wife) and the kids, I’d be standing in line next to you.”  He told me that you will be safe as long as you keep your head about you, and don’t do anything stupid.  This eased my mind a whole lot.  I know that a lot of you have expressed your concern, even anger, over the idea of me going over there.  I have not discounted that at all.  I just feel that this is an opportunity I want to jump on.  Not only will it get me out of debt, but it will also set me up to be “ready” to live the type of future that I want to/need to live.  I will come home with my security clearance, which will enable me to get a decent paying job, which is something I will need in this area.  On top of that, I will also have some money put away to purchase a home when I return. 

Well, I’ve rambled on enough for tonight.  I’ll try to update more soon, okay?  just know that I haven’t forgotten about you all!